OK SO I DEACTIVATED MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND MOVED BACK TO BLOGGER. HAHA?

AND DO EXPECT MORE BECAUSE I WILL WRITE MORE FROM NOW ON. :)

OH BTW, PEOPLE IN TAGBOARD, SI GUEST AND SI HEEE, THANKS FOR LEAVING YOUR TAGS. ALTHOUGH AKU MASIH TERTANYA-TANYA SIAPA SI HEEE ATU. :) :)

LAYERRRR (LATERRR! XD) PEOPLE!

Blupblupblup.

OK. DON'T BOTHER CHECKING FOR UPDATES ANYMORE.

BECAUSE I AM ALL OVER FB. ;)

cheapskate

NOTE TO SELF: NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER BUY/RELY ON CHEAP STUFFS UNLESS YOU ARE VERY DESPERATE. -,-

MY PAVVY!

TSK TSK. T_T

I am formatting my Pavvy. GOD, SINCE WHEN DID I START NAMING MY BELONGINGS? This so-called Pavvy is my HP Pavilion laptop. Cliche, I know but I really am not good with naming things; like for instance, I have this kitten plushy - well someone gave it to me and I am very reluctant to type out his name, for my own sake - that kitten, I have been keeping it for more than 3 years now and I still call it, merely... "kitten" or if my neffy asks... "meow bungsu". -_-;; I hope my future children names will not be as lame at that. >.<

FOOTBALL. Manchester United VS. Manchester City was on at 8.25 PM. 2-0. PERSONALLY, I like ROONEY but it would be a lie if I didn't mention RONALDO at all. I LOVEEE RONALDO, WHO DOESN'T. Jangantah ke Real Madrid bah. TEVEZ and PARK was not bad too. Others still did not catch my attention. I know EVRA and O'SHEA and GIGGS. AND AKU BARU TAU THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN FREE KICKS AND PENALTIES. -_-;; AND PROFESSIONAL FOULS. Well actually they don't call it professional fouls, I think that was just my dad's way of calling a foul being faked PROFESSIONALLY. :D For example, Ronaldo's, I think during VS. Tottensham, I don't remember BUT what I remember was HE GOT A PENALTY KICK FOR THAT AND SCORED. HAAAAAAHA.

But if I'm wrong about all that then forgive me because I am still new at this. :) BUT IT IS REALLY GOOD TO WATCH FOOTBALL MATCHES WITH MY DAD, and I rather watch football with him than drag him to watch romance movies with me. ~_~;;

PHOTOGRAPHY. Especially to si YASIR: awuu, aku paham udah about the motor thing. -.- Sheesh, banartah aku tau SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT but never really care to learn about the gadget - in this case, its dSLR camera. So far I have only try to 'play' with the mechanisms; you know, shutter and such. GAH, aku miss my passionate love for my NIKON. Sabar saja tah. Lapas PAVVY ku kana format, I will be back for more. ;)

NOVELS. I haven't start reading anything YET since my last post of NOVELS, plus PAVVY ku kena format. NOTE: AKU READ THE E-BOOKS.

Last but not the least, I am glad Fatin Nadirah left a tag arah tagboard ku or else I'd never know that an old friend still remembers me. :) :) She is afterall my old friend from SRAP: Sekolah Rendah Amar Pahlawan. Same goes to si Qils/Aqilah Rahman. (giggle) My memory of Qils was wayy back to Sek. Ugama Amar Pahlawan. She knows that, I think. About that OLD CRUSH OF YOURS QILS. NGEEEEEE. :D :D Back to Fatin, she was my classmate but inda ku ingat dari darjah berapa but we both were in 6B. I didn't think I was that close to you, was I? Because I was ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS with Rafidah, Amirah and Nabeelah. I wonder how's Fid doing?... D': I am so stupid for not keeping in contact with her. She was my very very best childhood friend. Kalau Amirah, last I met her was few years ago, and it was during my birthday! I even invited her to dinner together that day. :) I wonder if she still remembers that. Last I saw Fid about few years back too, arah Ideal and she was having lunch with her family. :)

Since Fatin have mentioned it at her blog: I AM SERIOUSLY IN FOR THE 6B REUNION THING. I MISS TOO MUCH OF THE GOOD OLD DAYS. Just a suggestion though, why not the entire Darjah 6 Year 2001 batch? Well since si Qils is from 6A and I am still in contact with Liyana from 6A, Aisyah and Ani jua and I also know some people from MD were from SRAP. Plus si Amin and Khafid are still in the neighbourhood. :) I am really curious to know what have they been doing up until now.

I MISS MY 12-YEAR OLD SELF. D': AND I AM SO GONNA DIG MORE SRAP PHOTOS FROM MY BOXES.

CODED.

I've been busy HELPING my sister do her DREAMWEAVER-RELATED assignment and also updating my brother-in-law's website's layout.

AND WAS PAID. :)

AND AND I missed many football matches. D':

AND AND AND I want Zinger Tower. D':

Hello. I am back.

Oh, hello. I am back.

Yes, I am so back to blogging. So as you can see, my template is off the template rack and I guess I will not bother myself to change it for a while. I think I can live with it. I think.

I am updating my blogroll right now. Been missing a lot of stuff.

delighted...not.

I think I have become one of those monthly blogger who care less about blogging their way out of boredom. NOT ANYMORE.

I am sewing, most of the time. And the rest of the time? Sulking my days off still ranting about the X. SIIGH. Who should I sue then? -.-'

I need more fabrics. More patterns. More polkadots. More colourful threads.

To have all that, I am sad to say, I need to have... money. Not more money. But Moooney. SIIGH. Why do I still rant about money when I know that I can make them? SIIGH. Lala, if you are reading this: LETS DO IT. THAT THING THAT YOU WANTED US TO DO. THAT THING THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH BODIES. AND VERY PHYSICAL.

O.O ...............

heee. :) Anyways, I should keep that down for now. I really start to reconsider the tutoring jobs that has been lingering in my mind for God knows how long. But confidence is not something that I always keep beside me. SIIGH. I just have a lot of expectations... but no efforts. SIIIIIGH. *echo* You should be ashamed of yourself *echo* -.-'

So I think this would be the last for this month. Lets procrastinate people. :)

P/S: I am attracting money like this:

I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money. I want money. Give me money.

LETS ALL DO IT TOGETHER! :D :D

FTW

FTW = FCUK THE 'WAIT'

-.- I really don't want to bitchtalk people as much as I can hold myself in but my inner thoughts insisted.

I mean it already happened. So I just wasted my saliva bitchtalked about that someone.

I think I have to let it go. Like what the wise man said "Ada hikmah tu di sebalik semua ani. Pecaya tah kau lai..." He really deserves his rank. :)

the cloister of trials

HAHAHHAHAAHAHAH. Some knows what I meant by that. "The Cloister of Trials", Final Fantasy much? HAHAHAH. I am playing my FFX and FFX2, again. This is like the fourth time. Because I never get the ULTIMATE ENDINGS. :) :) And because I am very, very, verrry depressed. -_-!

I am reading the walkthroughs now. XP

P/S: IT WASN'T EVEN MY FAULT TO BEGIN WITH. o.o

PRESENT TENSE

I AM MOVING ON -_-'' (some people should know what I mean by this).

AND SO, I can finally talk about somethingelse now. I am a bit reluctant though due to the fact that I have not uploaded photos from DevMeet.

HEEYY ITS NOT MY FAULT BAH! APA TU, THE BLOGGER ONLY
LET ME UPLOAD ONE PHOTO AT A TIME. LIKE, WHAT?? I HAVE MORE THAN 60 PHOTOS KALIAH. THEN THE CONNECTION LAGI TU MACAM APA!

Okayy, let it go. (talking to self) >_<

OKAY SO, what have I missed out?

TAHUN BARU HIJRIAH 1430. NEW YEAR 2009. ASTA FAMILY DAY. TUA ABG (nya niece ku) KAWIN. 3YEARS♥. NIECEKU SKULAH. "SPONTANEOUS" (nya Amal) OUTINGS. HANNEY'S. MOE INTERVIEW. SAKINAH'S. SHADOW ATTACHMENT.

And the best of them all is:

HANDCRAFTS: PLUSHIES♥♥♥

I am so in love with 'DIY' ('Do It Yourself') stuffs/thingy or whateveryoucallit. From papers to fabrics. I want to try it all. Recent example is Hanney's birthday present. I MADE HER A BUMBLEBEE PLUSH/SOFTIE! Since her name is Hanney/Honey so yeah, that should do it. I tell you, IT WAS NOT EASY but I made it overnight though (and because I was excited when sewing it together). To me, it was an achievement since I never really expected myself to actually sew everything IN PIECE and plus, BY FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS. -_-'' I admit that I am very bad at following "manuals".

I found the tutorial and FREE pattern over at DeviantART, so credits also goes to the owner for providing me with the INSTRUCTIONS which I needed very badly >_<

Here is where I do my work but I prefer hand sewing for making plushies.

So far I have made:

The Messy Ninja Guy
(my very first try)

The Squared Skull
(planning to make a lolita skull next, anyone wants?)

Ono, The Onogiri XD

My money pouch
My new principle: make the money feel comfortable so that more money will come.
So far it works. :D :D (though the photo tells otherwise haha)

last but not least,
Hanney's Bumblebee
SEE, I told you. It was in piece!

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THERE, I UPDATED. >_<

so much much more

GEH. I have been refusing myself from blogging. OK OK. I shall blog all I have missed out now.

First off, my cosplay costume as Nakahara Sunako. I was 'thisclose' to change my mind of changing my character from Sunako to Noi-chan (also from My Fair Lady). Why you say? It is because of this:

Price: BND11.60

Yah, a frizzy wig. It wasn't an accident, I really bought it thinking that it should be okay for Sunako but I didn't think that it would be VERY FRIZZY. It was made for Holloween actually, I think. GAH. If I knew, I could have done the Sunako's Holloween costume instead of the uniform. OK OK so Misery offered me her looong brown wig (she was initially going to cosplay as Noi) then seeing my hesitation (maybe), before we went to get some 'snow', she brought me to the Happy Star Trading co.

Then I saw it.

THE WIG, with Sunako's bangs!

Price: BND21.90

GEH. I was like: O_O I SOULD HAVE GONE THERE EARLIER!

I bought the frizzy one at Little M, like, HAMPIR JUA TU! OK, seriously, sebenarnya I was starving at that time. We haven't eaten our lunch yet because my dad said "Caritah dulu wig mu ah" So the only thing I was thinking about was... food -_-". Yatah seriously I was regretting it.

I know its not loong enough and that I could have 'grown' them, but its pretty. Even prettier than my hair. Well I do not consider my hair pretty pulang. -_-" (depressed)

Then I went to the tailor shop to pick up the uniform costume.

Price: BND40.00 + BND10.00 (fabrics)

Though it is not exactly like the prints I gave her -_-' ... it is not bad actually. It is quite neat and a perfect fit. I also bought the socks; its a net socks instead of the 'thick' school socks because I do not want to sweat my feet a lot. XD Then the shoes, nyeh, I didn't buy that. Its my sister's. :D:D

Price: BND 3.90

Price: Priceless. XD

The sum of all that equals to:

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Price: BND87.40 XD

OH and I decided not to wear a bini hat pasal rimas lah. FUFUFUUFUUU~!!

geh.

I was just going to blog about my sunako costume but hmm.... never mind. I got sleepy from Plurking the whole hour. It seems that I am very addicted to Plurk these days. And THANKS to Amalish for that. :D:D:D:D:D

its okay.

I thought I was strong enough to accept anything. Apparently, I have yet, a lot to learn. I wanted to be as calm and positive as I expect myself to be but I guess I am not mature enough. So I can only become paranoid.

Why didn't they call?
Why didn't they inform me?
Why didn't I get selected?
Was I too much?
Was I too inadequate?
Were my references bad?
Or was it my PoS?
etc.
etc.

So while my mind was going wild, I decided to text SY.
To my dismay, she wasn't called too. -_-"
I really thought that she would have already been informed.

She calmly reply my chaotic message, saying: ...because it is hard to get a scholarship and there are many other chances though.

GOODNESS. I can immediately see our different level of maturity.

But actually, my cousin, who was informed, was even more chaotic than me. About the fact that, I didn't get "the call" -_-"

G, if you are reading this: I am still glad that you called and told me, though it hurts. T_T

JOKE :D:D:D

But seriously, I wasn't too confident with it that I even limit myself from being confident. Or maybe I should not have done that? GEH.

MISERY: I am so sorry if I can't make your NZ tour a dream come true. D': D': A UK tour perhaps? :D:D

So as soon as I replied my cousin's message, I instantly start a new application: MS WORDS and wrote:

Personal Statement

I want to further my higher education in Physiotherapy. WHY?!?! WHY DID THIS HAPPENED TO ME?!?!?! TT__TT

(I broke down)

FUUU XD. No, actually, I barely continue my second sentence. I couldn't think of anything. I also, immediately went to ucas and check for UK universities that offers Physiotheraphy course. GEH.

--the following paragraph has nothing to do with the above issue, that is if you can read this note--

Then I stopped halfway and continue my ONEMANGA-ing, now that is more refreshing since Skip Beat 133 is up! FUFUUFUU~ And thank goodness, Special A is back on track! I love mangas over animes afterall. You see, I finished Special A anime and the ending was... okay. BUT the manga is far more OKAY. ITS GREAT, FANTASTIC, BRILLIANT, SUPERB, ...etc. I was exaggerating, I only meant to say that I like the manga plots more. :D:D

Then I stopped halfway to finish my Jumong DVD3. So far I think its getting interesting. The story plot that is. Actually at this moment, my dad is watching DVD1, my sister DVD2, me DVD3 and my mom is on DVD4: all at different places. 3 of us use laptops while my mom is using the DVD player. XDXDXD So we are definitely catching up with each other.

I am just getting along with my fate.

PFFBTT.

PFFBBTTJERKGRHH.

o,o don't mind me.

Probably this is my third time posting up my own photo in my own blog. I was pretty bored all afternoon while waiting for my crappy laptop to boot (I keep on having the blue screen). I don't even know what verb to use for this - vain-ing? emo-ing? Whateverlahs. The important thing is: this is me being Sunako, and wigless. I also had to cut my bangs short (it was a mess). This is straight from my phone and no editing was done (except for the trademark?).

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sweet revenge

I don't feel like Sunako-ing today.

First, Yush, then my dad. Siigh. God, how much worse can this be? May be my sister knew that I was such in a bad mood so when she came home, she brought me Buttercookies. One of my favourites. Ah, just forget about it.

The day after tomorrow, the attachment. I have been looking forward to it ever since I heard about it last year. Some of my acquaintances from MD will be there too -- Gmah (LT12), Yee Ping (Bio), Shiou Yii (GP) and Jerold (Chem). We will be having a 1-week rotation service (but in fact the 1-week is merely 5 days excluding Friday and Sunday). Jangan salah, the schedule given is fully packed with everything! I think I am going to enjoy my attachment, somehow.

We are not paid for the attachment. It is just for the sake of knowing many different health-related careers that we can have and to experience it for a short while. As for me, it is between Scientific Services or Physiotherapy. Physiotherapy course - only God knows how exaggerated I was when I heard about people being nude during lessons just for the sake of learning about the "body". I can accept it now though. It is afterall, for the knowledge.

GTG. (stail lama)

P/S: I can't find my wig TT_TT (I shouldn't have cut my hair!) and my so-called 'school uniform' cost me BND40. It that a reasonable price? I thought it should be less than that. Afterall, it is a 'school uniform'. Is it that hard to make that kind of school uniform kah auntie? Or maybe she thought that I am just a spoilt brat who wouldn't care about how much my 'SCHOOL UNIFORM' would cost. Bah fine whatever, you are the tailor afterall. I can't do anything about that. My dad didn't care, but I care about money OKAY. My family is actually acquainted with one of the tailors (the main reason why I want to do my uniform there) but she moved to other branch. That is the reason why I didn't get a 'smooth' deal. GAHH!

P/S/S: That is why I got into a really bad mood. Akhirnya Sunako-ing jua ku nah. I JUST HOPE IT WILL TURN OUT VERY WELL SINCE IT COST ME BND40. Awu, jangan komplain because I have always been like this when it comes to money.

adulthood

Am I still a kid to you?

True that parents, no matter how big, wide and tall their children has become, will only see them still as the innocent, obedient and sometimes naughty little kids. I don't like being seen like that still after all this years.

(I did type a long paragraph here but I think it was too, explicit.)

paradox

It is really funny on how I managed to complain so much over June AS examination, as to say that it was really a big deal. Some didn't think so. While I was reminiscing my past, I came across this post. Since 2008 is coming to an end, it is only natural for one to take a look back at ones life for the past year, right?

Actually I am thinking of skipping this topic and move on to the next one. ^_^

GREAT NEWS: I just received a phone call from Jes and she said "YOUR SUNAKO!"~♥♥♥

I knew what it was, the cosplay is on! And it will be my first ever cosplay, and as my most favourite character of them all, NAKAHARA SUNAKO! ~~♥♥

This girl right here.

Who can be like this:

And this:

So don't tell me that someone else is doing her. I did plan big though i.e. steal Biology lab punya human anatomy mannequin, because I can't afford B$100+ just for a Hiroshi-kun (one of Sunako's mannequins: others are John, Josephine and Akira-kun). And I was planning to get some skulls, a huge one for a John, but it is hard to find it in Brunei and I haven't really tried internet buying (although Jes advised me to). But now I have my own plan of doing small 'props' for Sunako. May not be extravagant like having mannequins all over (I wish), just some details.

I am not choosing her as my character because of my confidence in portraying her. OKAY look, to put it in simple terms, I am not Sunako. People don't describe me like this:

• Often referred to as Ghost girl or Scary girl due to her dark presence.
• A lover of solitude, gore movies, anatomical dolls and objects that reflect the ugly side of life as she puts it.
• Has locked herself away in a world of solitude due to a traumatic experience with her first love.

That is just not me, at least not all of that. But I like her character very much, not a candidate for a role model though but as someone I could see way deep down inside me, someone who I ought to be I think, that is if I hadn't got the confidence.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get my butt to the tailor shop, WITH MY MOTHER. Of course before that I have to buy some school uniform materials and thank God the colour of the school uniform is the same colour as the ones primary schools' wears (I wonder if mom still keeps mine?). Oh in case you are wondering why, I am cosplaying as Nakahara Sunako in her school uniform; a uniform which gives out some kind of 'catholic' vibe.

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EHHHHHHHHHHHH?! (like the typical japanese's "EHHH?!")

I did kept all Sunako's uniform photos for examples to show to the tailor but I seem to delete it already because I naively thought that I could just re'save' the image from the manga. AND now I am taking my bloody time searching for those pictures! Then I think I'll have to read the manga again, for the sake of my cosplay. ;p Google don't have those good photos from the manga.

P/S: Where to get such long straight (and black) wig ah? I already cut my hair short, again. What about a bini hat? I have an orange bini hat and I don't think Sunako would wear such bright colour. (giggle)

pouting

Yes, I know you are a pretty girl but you don't have to pout so much, bida tia.

I have moodswings lately, not just because I am sick. Some biotic factors also contributes to this ruthless behaviour of mine. I can't seem to get rid of it any sooner. I feel like I want to go out, but I refuse. I have been wanting to go to Hokko to buy some white felts but no money, no car, so no talk. Apart from cottons, that is the only material left for me to make some bunnies softies. Siigh. My hands are itching, I really want to sew some more (I sound like an old lady).

PFFFBBTT.

in trance

So here I am again, who was supposed to be soundly asleep. I did drowsed for a while but it came to my senses that he may be online. But he has not, so I am quite disappointed. Now it is hard for me to go to sleep so I decided to ONEMANGA-ing. I just finished "Cutie Boy"; its Manhwa. It is not a famous manga but why would that be a reason to not read it, right? Next up is NANA. Now this one is famous; a complete set -- manga, anime and live-action. But macam malas jua ku kan baca because I don't want myself to be attached to it like what I did to HYD and many other mangas. Especially when it is still ongoing, and also ones that is already completed. Ongoing mangas are a pain to the ass; I don't like to wait, I want to know what happens next. BUT when it is completed, I DON'T WANT IT TO END! Especially when there is romance. What can I do jua kan?

Speaking of HYD, the movie is already out RUPANYA. I did not know, not until I went to Mysoju and saw "Hana Yori Dango 3 The MOVIE". How come I didn't know? I thought I was such a huge fan. Actually before I did came across a HYD forum and they rumored of ...a THIRD SEASON of HYD? Of course I didn't believe it: I really think that the finale of season 2 was the best ending for HYD. It couldn't get any better, and there couldn't possibly be anymore mischiefs done by Doumyoji's mom. Then I was wrong again. Hmm, now I am curious. Bah kan lyt HYD 3 ku dulu!

EDIT: GRHH! Just when I was about to watch it, it VANISHES! "Ops. The video is not available" Damn you! Nevertheless, now I am watching Shugo Chara! again, from where I 'abandoned' it. I think I know exactly why I am addicted to Shugo Chara: ITS THE CHARAS! THEY ARE TOO CUTE!! OH believe me, they are. I can't resist this elementary-level anime because of that. I thought I was too childish but it seems that I am too into the charas (and not the character transformations OKAY).