PRESENT TENSE

I AM MOVING ON -_-'' (some people should know what I mean by this).

AND SO, I can finally talk about somethingelse now. I am a bit reluctant though due to the fact that I have not uploaded photos from DevMeet.

HEEYY ITS NOT MY FAULT BAH! APA TU, THE BLOGGER ONLY
LET ME UPLOAD ONE PHOTO AT A TIME. LIKE, WHAT?? I HAVE MORE THAN 60 PHOTOS KALIAH. THEN THE CONNECTION LAGI TU MACAM APA!

Okayy, let it go. (talking to self) >_<

OKAY SO, what have I missed out?

TAHUN BARU HIJRIAH 1430. NEW YEAR 2009. ASTA FAMILY DAY. TUA ABG (nya niece ku) KAWIN. 3YEARS♥. NIECEKU SKULAH. "SPONTANEOUS" (nya Amal) OUTINGS. HANNEY'S. MOE INTERVIEW. SAKINAH'S. SHADOW ATTACHMENT.

And the best of them all is:

HANDCRAFTS: PLUSHIES♥♥♥

I am so in love with 'DIY' ('Do It Yourself') stuffs/thingy or whateveryoucallit. From papers to fabrics. I want to try it all. Recent example is Hanney's birthday present. I MADE HER A BUMBLEBEE PLUSH/SOFTIE! Since her name is Hanney/Honey so yeah, that should do it. I tell you, IT WAS NOT EASY but I made it overnight though (and because I was excited when sewing it together). To me, it was an achievement since I never really expected myself to actually sew everything IN PIECE and plus, BY FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS. -_-'' I admit that I am very bad at following "manuals".

I found the tutorial and FREE pattern over at DeviantART, so credits also goes to the owner for providing me with the INSTRUCTIONS which I needed very badly >_<

Here is where I do my work but I prefer hand sewing for making plushies.

So far I have made:

The Messy Ninja Guy
(my very first try)

The Squared Skull
(planning to make a lolita skull next, anyone wants?)

Ono, The Onogiri XD

My money pouch
My new principle: make the money feel comfortable so that more money will come.
So far it works. :D :D (though the photo tells otherwise haha)

last but not least,
Hanney's Bumblebee
SEE, I told you. It was in piece!

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THERE, I UPDATED. >_<

its okay.

I thought I was strong enough to accept anything. Apparently, I have yet, a lot to learn. I wanted to be as calm and positive as I expect myself to be but I guess I am not mature enough. So I can only become paranoid.

Why didn't they call?
Why didn't they inform me?
Why didn't I get selected?
Was I too much?
Was I too inadequate?
Were my references bad?
Or was it my PoS?
etc.
etc.

So while my mind was going wild, I decided to text SY.
To my dismay, she wasn't called too. -_-"
I really thought that she would have already been informed.

She calmly reply my chaotic message, saying: ...because it is hard to get a scholarship and there are many other chances though.

GOODNESS. I can immediately see our different level of maturity.

But actually, my cousin, who was informed, was even more chaotic than me. About the fact that, I didn't get "the call" -_-"

G, if you are reading this: I am still glad that you called and told me, though it hurts. T_T

JOKE :D:D:D

But seriously, I wasn't too confident with it that I even limit myself from being confident. Or maybe I should not have done that? GEH.

MISERY: I am so sorry if I can't make your NZ tour a dream come true. D': D': A UK tour perhaps? :D:D

So as soon as I replied my cousin's message, I instantly start a new application: MS WORDS and wrote:

Personal Statement

I want to further my higher education in Physiotherapy. WHY?!?! WHY DID THIS HAPPENED TO ME?!?!?! TT__TT

(I broke down)

FUUU XD. No, actually, I barely continue my second sentence. I couldn't think of anything. I also, immediately went to ucas and check for UK universities that offers Physiotheraphy course. GEH.

--the following paragraph has nothing to do with the above issue, that is if you can read this note--

Then I stopped halfway and continue my ONEMANGA-ing, now that is more refreshing since Skip Beat 133 is up! FUFUUFUU~ And thank goodness, Special A is back on track! I love mangas over animes afterall. You see, I finished Special A anime and the ending was... okay. BUT the manga is far more OKAY. ITS GREAT, FANTASTIC, BRILLIANT, SUPERB, ...etc. I was exaggerating, I only meant to say that I like the manga plots more. :D:D

Then I stopped halfway to finish my Jumong DVD3. So far I think its getting interesting. The story plot that is. Actually at this moment, my dad is watching DVD1, my sister DVD2, me DVD3 and my mom is on DVD4: all at different places. 3 of us use laptops while my mom is using the DVD player. XDXDXD So we are definitely catching up with each other.

I am just getting along with my fate.

Holy shittake part 2

*Continuation from this post.

Apparently, this is the ONLY photo that is safe.


Well, it wouldn't be fair if I say it like that. I meant to say the only safe photo FROM MY 19th BIRTHDAY. It is from my Facebook (I think some people should recognised, its my profile photo). I shouldn't have deleted my photo albums back then; I COULD HAVE RETRIEVED EVERYTHING, especially Miss Yani's. Inda ku sampat membagi teacher the photos bah. And plus, atu tah saja photo ku sama teacher Yani. GOD, AKU BANAR-BANAR SASAK.

P/S: Awu, that one is my boyfriend, si Yush. He looks like a baddie~ And I looked, weird. No comment.

sweet revenge

I don't feel like Sunako-ing today.

First, Yush, then my dad. Siigh. God, how much worse can this be? May be my sister knew that I was such in a bad mood so when she came home, she brought me Buttercookies. One of my favourites. Ah, just forget about it.

The day after tomorrow, the attachment. I have been looking forward to it ever since I heard about it last year. Some of my acquaintances from MD will be there too -- Gmah (LT12), Yee Ping (Bio), Shiou Yii (GP) and Jerold (Chem). We will be having a 1-week rotation service (but in fact the 1-week is merely 5 days excluding Friday and Sunday). Jangan salah, the schedule given is fully packed with everything! I think I am going to enjoy my attachment, somehow.

We are not paid for the attachment. It is just for the sake of knowing many different health-related careers that we can have and to experience it for a short while. As for me, it is between Scientific Services or Physiotherapy. Physiotherapy course - only God knows how exaggerated I was when I heard about people being nude during lessons just for the sake of learning about the "body". I can accept it now though. It is afterall, for the knowledge.

GTG. (stail lama)

P/S: I can't find my wig TT_TT (I shouldn't have cut my hair!) and my so-called 'school uniform' cost me BND40. It that a reasonable price? I thought it should be less than that. Afterall, it is a 'school uniform'. Is it that hard to make that kind of school uniform kah auntie? Or maybe she thought that I am just a spoilt brat who wouldn't care about how much my 'SCHOOL UNIFORM' would cost. Bah fine whatever, you are the tailor afterall. I can't do anything about that. My dad didn't care, but I care about money OKAY. My family is actually acquainted with one of the tailors (the main reason why I want to do my uniform there) but she moved to other branch. That is the reason why I didn't get a 'smooth' deal. GAHH!

P/S/S: That is why I got into a really bad mood. Akhirnya Sunako-ing jua ku nah. I JUST HOPE IT WILL TURN OUT VERY WELL SINCE IT COST ME BND40. Awu, jangan komplain because I have always been like this when it comes to money.

adulthood

Am I still a kid to you?

True that parents, no matter how big, wide and tall their children has become, will only see them still as the innocent, obedient and sometimes naughty little kids. I don't like being seen like that still after all this years.

(I did type a long paragraph here but I think it was too, explicit.)

in trance

So here I am again, who was supposed to be soundly asleep. I did drowsed for a while but it came to my senses that he may be online. But he has not, so I am quite disappointed. Now it is hard for me to go to sleep so I decided to ONEMANGA-ing. I just finished "Cutie Boy"; its Manhwa. It is not a famous manga but why would that be a reason to not read it, right? Next up is NANA. Now this one is famous; a complete set -- manga, anime and live-action. But macam malas jua ku kan baca because I don't want myself to be attached to it like what I did to HYD and many other mangas. Especially when it is still ongoing, and also ones that is already completed. Ongoing mangas are a pain to the ass; I don't like to wait, I want to know what happens next. BUT when it is completed, I DON'T WANT IT TO END! Especially when there is romance. What can I do jua kan?

Speaking of HYD, the movie is already out RUPANYA. I did not know, not until I went to Mysoju and saw "Hana Yori Dango 3 The MOVIE". How come I didn't know? I thought I was such a huge fan. Actually before I did came across a HYD forum and they rumored of ...a THIRD SEASON of HYD? Of course I didn't believe it: I really think that the finale of season 2 was the best ending for HYD. It couldn't get any better, and there couldn't possibly be anymore mischiefs done by Doumyoji's mom. Then I was wrong again. Hmm, now I am curious. Bah kan lyt HYD 3 ku dulu!

EDIT: GRHH! Just when I was about to watch it, it VANISHES! "Ops. The video is not available" Damn you! Nevertheless, now I am watching Shugo Chara! again, from where I 'abandoned' it. I think I know exactly why I am addicted to Shugo Chara: ITS THE CHARAS! THEY ARE TOO CUTE!! OH believe me, they are. I can't resist this elementary-level anime because of that. I thought I was too childish but it seems that I am too into the charas (and not the character transformations OKAY).

Holy shittake.

I am very frustrated. I lost my most memorable recent photos, right from my own hard disk. Especially those photos from my birthday. I keep on blaming the stupid external hard disk for it and been unconsciously nagging like an old lady. God, sasak ku wah. The open LT photos I can take from Anna but the open GP class and Miss Yani's birthday?... God, aku banar-banar sasak. I should have burn them out and give it to Tikah earlier, but now what can I give her? I already promised her the photos after the exam. Is this my fault? I did nothing wrong jua! I am really sorry to those people involved in the photos. It is really upsetting for me to just let it be... gone, just like that.

Subject: People
Location: Home

Depression.

Ah, okay. That was just so annoying to look at for the past few weeks.
"I am back people." like
"I AM REALLY BACK PEOPLEEEEEE!"
"THIS IS FOR REAL!!!"
Tapi my blog is literally DEEAADX,X!

Okay, so, whatever, right. I am just depressed over school.

Anyhoo.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS
TO
MY BELOVED FIRST WIFE (~_~)!
GMAH (LEFT)
(to the right is my first wife too, si Anna =S hehehe)

AND AND TO
MY VELI GOODEST FRIEND,
AMALINA

P/S: I wuvvee Amal. Shes so Gothic. I love Gothic people.
HEEE 8D. (Yes, as nerdy as I am...)

My goal.

"You show no improvement,..." she said.

I took things for granted.

VERY BELATED.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS

TO
LIYANA'S BELOVED ONE,
AZIM
ON THE
23/04/2006

TO
A VERY GOOD LONG LOST FRIEND OF MINE,
AZRI YAHYAON THE
06/05/2008

TO
MY CUTIE KOREAN-JAPANESE ALIKE DUCKIE COUSIN,
HAFIZON THE
09/05/2008

TO
MY DEARLY BELOVED NEFFY,
AFIZUL AMALIEE♥
ON THE
11/05/2008

TO
MY GOOD FRIEND SLASH COUSIN,
HANISAH

Sorry Nish, this is the latest picture of you that I have got. HEEE O=)

AND TO
GMAH KIUTT'S BELOVED ONE
FAKHRI

This picture is taken by Gmah herself. If you are reading this Gmah, I was actually kan upload you guys punya picture together but I know you would oppose for a particular reason that cannot be stated here. Gahaha.

ON THE
14/05/2008

GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU.

LT12 BLK5

Yes, from the GDLs, to the Elevenians, to the China Towners(?), you just feel as good being in MD despite of being in the so-called groupers; I was meant to say that in MD, we are racist we are rational.
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HEEE. ^___^

For me its does feels good to be able to be ACCEPTED here. That is as far as I know.

They are crazy, its fun to hang out with them. ^_^

50106

"Today marks the end of an intimate relationship but a beginning of a neverending story."

"I LOVE YOU, SISTA!" Gahaha! Capiee.

Not too much.

GAH.
I tried not to be over confident for this upcoming June AS, and I kept telling myself, "I am not confident, I am not confident; I am just excited, this is excitation; I did it, and I can do it again." Convincing much, yes?

For last November AS, I did not do much revisions as I am now for June AS; this freaks me out. Big time. Because for one thing that I know about myself is that, I tend to flunk when things get too 'serious' and too organized.

What annoys me most is that people kept saying that I don't have to worry anymore about my Biology and/or that I will aced my June again. They are making me more and more aware of my own abilities, in a way that, it scares me. I know they are just trying to 'NOT discouraging' me and to them, as a way of support.

BLA BLA BLA


To Amalina, a very good friend of mine, if she is reading this (I hope she do read this someday): I care about the people who are kind to me, which includes you. Be strong, and do not hurt yourself IN ANY WAY. No cutting, no writing hurtful frustrated letters or post-its, no vandalizing yourself, no cursing (you don't curse, do you?), no punching, no everything that will result to more pain. OK? You are one, and probably the only friend that I have, who has this consistency in believing her own philosophy. This is my view about you so I am sorry if you don't feel that its right. One more thing is that, I really enjoy doing window shoppings with you. (:

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Penyeluru. Gahaha.

So this is LALA. I call this piece, patriotism in a gentle-er way. HEHEHE.

And this is the brother, ZAIM, yang suka tidor and main bola; and he said that thats the reasons why he has grown up so tall.

Right.

And at this moment, Si Gmah would say "Taie ko." Hahahaha.

SeaMonkeys.

First, it is not mine and that is obvious (thats me in the picture).
Second, I put up my trademark simply because it is a photo of myself.
GAHAHAHA.

And third, I look fat (x.x) and I am not denying it.
*nahan tawa*

The curves.

My sister and I went out for a short outing at Jerudong, and was supposed to catch the sunset but we ended up having a photoshoot of hers and mine.

I felt sorry for my Lumix because I have been ignoring him for quite a while due to the presence of si Nikon D40x. This photo below is taken using si Nikon D40x. It looked slightly fade in colour (I, myself love to contrast).

Into the darkness

Into what it seems to be... the darkness.
CLICHE`

Lets FLY

Muara beach's playground.
"Weeeeeeeeeee~~~~"

The best duckies

"This year's Duckie Next Top Model goes to...... *drum rolls*...."
I call them best duckies instead of best little kiddos. One less though. My niece Anish was not in the mood to join the photoshoot.

I know right. You have seen these kiddos a lot of times in a lot of posts.

A fine day

When there is a statement on the photos saying "NOT MINE" means that the photos are not taken by me.

In fact, these photos below are taken by my sister with her D40x~
I just like them so much.

What I like about this photo is the variety of colour. You can't really see it here.

And this photo is because; I directed her to do that. Gehehe. No lah. It could have been better with higher light intensity.