its okay.

I thought I was strong enough to accept anything. Apparently, I have yet, a lot to learn. I wanted to be as calm and positive as I expect myself to be but I guess I am not mature enough. So I can only become paranoid.

Why didn't they call?
Why didn't they inform me?
Why didn't I get selected?
Was I too much?
Was I too inadequate?
Were my references bad?
Or was it my PoS?
etc.
etc.

So while my mind was going wild, I decided to text SY.
To my dismay, she wasn't called too. -_-"
I really thought that she would have already been informed.

She calmly reply my chaotic message, saying: ...because it is hard to get a scholarship and there are many other chances though.

GOODNESS. I can immediately see our different level of maturity.

But actually, my cousin, who was informed, was even more chaotic than me. About the fact that, I didn't get "the call" -_-"

G, if you are reading this: I am still glad that you called and told me, though it hurts. T_T

JOKE :D:D:D

But seriously, I wasn't too confident with it that I even limit myself from being confident. Or maybe I should not have done that? GEH.

MISERY: I am so sorry if I can't make your NZ tour a dream come true. D': D': A UK tour perhaps? :D:D

So as soon as I replied my cousin's message, I instantly start a new application: MS WORDS and wrote:

Personal Statement

I want to further my higher education in Physiotherapy. WHY?!?! WHY DID THIS HAPPENED TO ME?!?!?! TT__TT

(I broke down)

FUUU XD. No, actually, I barely continue my second sentence. I couldn't think of anything. I also, immediately went to ucas and check for UK universities that offers Physiotheraphy course. GEH.

--the following paragraph has nothing to do with the above issue, that is if you can read this note--

Then I stopped halfway and continue my ONEMANGA-ing, now that is more refreshing since Skip Beat 133 is up! FUFUUFUU~ And thank goodness, Special A is back on track! I love mangas over animes afterall. You see, I finished Special A anime and the ending was... okay. BUT the manga is far more OKAY. ITS GREAT, FANTASTIC, BRILLIANT, SUPERB, ...etc. I was exaggerating, I only meant to say that I like the manga plots more. :D:D

Then I stopped halfway to finish my Jumong DVD3. So far I think its getting interesting. The story plot that is. Actually at this moment, my dad is watching DVD1, my sister DVD2, me DVD3 and my mom is on DVD4: all at different places. 3 of us use laptops while my mom is using the DVD player. XDXDXD So we are definitely catching up with each other.

I am just getting along with my fate.