True, true.

Sense and Sensibility was... OMG.

I kinda went !@#$% WTHWTHWTH !@#$% in the middle but in the end, its all good. Not expected but good I guess. I kinda feel ...weird? in some way because I think that Brandon should be better off with Elinor and Edward with Marianne. o.o;; OH WELL. I should just read the book first before making any judgements. I thought that Wiloughby guy was like that Wickham guy from Pride and Prejudice but who knows that in the end, he actually really loved Marianne. Again. Money, money, money. Reputation, reputation, reputation. GAH, WHOCARES! Look at Darcy, the hell he cares, right? My beloved Mr. Darcy? :3

Sense and Sensibilty was on at 6.45 PM yesterday. I almost missed it. I was watching it with my dad. Note to self: don't watch classic romance movies with bapa. -.- Then JANE AUSTEN BOOK CLUB was up after that. This one was refreshing. It makes me geekily wanna have a book club or join one. Jane Austen anyone? Or perhaps TWILIGHT? Since I am finished with 4 of the SAGAs. :D After watching the movie, it really makes me want to read all Jane Austen books. Karang tah kali aku start.

Yesterday morning I went out with my parents, INITIALLY with a desire to buy new eyemake-ups; eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara. I don't really care about eyebrows right now. So yes, that was my ULTIMATE OBJECTIVE for that morning. SEKALINYA... I bought DVDs pulang. o.o; I couldn't resist Vampire Knight OKAY. It has been on my list for ages. Kesian aku ah. I bought VK, VK Guilty and Special A (Part 1). Like wth, PART 1 SAJA AKU BALI?! Yatah bari malas wah beparts ani. I don't like to go there again and search for the 2nd part. Grhh. I didn't bother to search for Skip Beat! because ITS NOT FINISHED YET. Cuatah jangan beseason-season ani. I am tired of waiting. Speaking of the devil, I wonder if there are updates on Skip Beat! manga for the past week? :\

And one last thing before I go:

UEFA CHAMPIONS LEAGUE SEMIFINALS:
MANCHESTER UNITED VS. ARSENAL TONIGHT! :D

so much much more

GEH. I have been refusing myself from blogging. OK OK. I shall blog all I have missed out now.

First off, my cosplay costume as Nakahara Sunako. I was 'thisclose' to change my mind of changing my character from Sunako to Noi-chan (also from My Fair Lady). Why you say? It is because of this:

Price: BND11.60

Yah, a frizzy wig. It wasn't an accident, I really bought it thinking that it should be okay for Sunako but I didn't think that it would be VERY FRIZZY. It was made for Holloween actually, I think. GAH. If I knew, I could have done the Sunako's Holloween costume instead of the uniform. OK OK so Misery offered me her looong brown wig (she was initially going to cosplay as Noi) then seeing my hesitation (maybe), before we went to get some 'snow', she brought me to the Happy Star Trading co.

Then I saw it.

THE WIG, with Sunako's bangs!

Price: BND21.90

GEH. I was like: O_O I SOULD HAVE GONE THERE EARLIER!

I bought the frizzy one at Little M, like, HAMPIR JUA TU! OK, seriously, sebenarnya I was starving at that time. We haven't eaten our lunch yet because my dad said "Caritah dulu wig mu ah" So the only thing I was thinking about was... food -_-". Yatah seriously I was regretting it.

I know its not loong enough and that I could have 'grown' them, but its pretty. Even prettier than my hair. Well I do not consider my hair pretty pulang. -_-" (depressed)

Then I went to the tailor shop to pick up the uniform costume.

Price: BND40.00 + BND10.00 (fabrics)

Though it is not exactly like the prints I gave her -_-' ... it is not bad actually. It is quite neat and a perfect fit. I also bought the socks; its a net socks instead of the 'thick' school socks because I do not want to sweat my feet a lot. XD Then the shoes, nyeh, I didn't buy that. Its my sister's. :D:D

Price: BND 3.90

Price: Priceless. XD

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Price: BND87.40 XD

OH and I decided not to wear a bini hat pasal rimas lah. FUFUFUUFUUU~!!

its okay.

I thought I was strong enough to accept anything. Apparently, I have yet, a lot to learn. I wanted to be as calm and positive as I expect myself to be but I guess I am not mature enough. So I can only become paranoid.

Why didn't they call?
Why didn't they inform me?
Why didn't I get selected?
Was I too much?
Was I too inadequate?
Were my references bad?
Or was it my PoS?
etc.
etc.

So while my mind was going wild, I decided to text SY.
To my dismay, she wasn't called too. -_-"
I really thought that she would have already been informed.

She calmly reply my chaotic message, saying: ...because it is hard to get a scholarship and there are many other chances though.

GOODNESS. I can immediately see our different level of maturity.

But actually, my cousin, who was informed, was even more chaotic than me. About the fact that, I didn't get "the call" -_-"

G, if you are reading this: I am still glad that you called and told me, though it hurts. T_T

JOKE :D:D:D

But seriously, I wasn't too confident with it that I even limit myself from being confident. Or maybe I should not have done that? GEH.

MISERY: I am so sorry if I can't make your NZ tour a dream come true. D': D': A UK tour perhaps? :D:D

So as soon as I replied my cousin's message, I instantly start a new application: MS WORDS and wrote:

Personal Statement

I want to further my higher education in Physiotherapy. WHY?!?! WHY DID THIS HAPPENED TO ME?!?!?! TT__TT

(I broke down)

FUUU XD. No, actually, I barely continue my second sentence. I couldn't think of anything. I also, immediately went to ucas and check for UK universities that offers Physiotheraphy course. GEH.

--the following paragraph has nothing to do with the above issue, that is if you can read this note--

Then I stopped halfway and continue my ONEMANGA-ing, now that is more refreshing since Skip Beat 133 is up! FUFUUFUU~ And thank goodness, Special A is back on track! I love mangas over animes afterall. You see, I finished Special A anime and the ending was... okay. BUT the manga is far more OKAY. ITS GREAT, FANTASTIC, BRILLIANT, SUPERB, ...etc. I was exaggerating, I only meant to say that I like the manga plots more. :D:D

Then I stopped halfway to finish my Jumong DVD3. So far I think its getting interesting. The story plot that is. Actually at this moment, my dad is watching DVD1, my sister DVD2, me DVD3 and my mom is on DVD4: all at different places. 3 of us use laptops while my mom is using the DVD player. XDXDXD So we are definitely catching up with each other.

I am just getting along with my fate.

VK

Vampire Knight 46 is out!

ZEROOOOOOOO~~! Don't go. D':

I still root for Kaname-sama though. :D:D:D

tralalalala~~

o,o don't mind me.

Probably this is my third time posting up my own photo in my own blog. I was pretty bored all afternoon while waiting for my crappy laptop to boot (I keep on having the blue screen). I don't even know what verb to use for this - vain-ing? emo-ing? Whateverlahs. The important thing is: this is me being Sunako, and wigless. I also had to cut my bangs short (it was a mess). This is straight from my phone and no editing was done (except for the trademark?).

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SUNAKO-ing

(When she was asked to be a model: she turned out to be chibi all the time during the photoshoot)

(Known fact about Sunako: she can't stand being surrounded by BRIGHT CREATURES)

(I forgot when is this ~_~)

(This too)

(This is during Valentine's Day: Sunako loves CHOCOLATES!)

(And she loves gore movies too: "SAW")

I can't get enough of her. *_*
Please do read and watch Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge / Wallflower / My Fair Lady manga.
You'll never get bored!

progression

Look what I made!

From this pile of potential junks

To this guy right here

This memo book is derived from Chapter 72 -Takenaga's Honor. This one:


Oh yes, I brought my materials. Cost me BND10. The dark blue cloth was 1.80/m and the white one was 4.70/m (made from some kind of a cotton family she said) -_- It was easy for me to choose the materials. I just point this and that, pay and go out. Macam baju kanak-kanak darjah pra ah punya material.


I don't have a long black school socks so I am going to buy that tomorrow together with a bini hat. I was also planning to buy a violet contact lens but to save my budget, I'll just stick with my clear ones. School shoes? I am not planning to wear mine, too fancy for Sunako. I'll use my sister's ones, those that she wore AGES AGO. What else ah? OH WIG! I heard from my sister's friend that the long wig cost BND80 -_-' My mom said she wouldn't pay BND80 for just a wig. Kan di apanya jua nya.

This is how I suppose to look like:

Hope it will be a success ;)

paradox

It is really funny on how I managed to complain so much over June AS examination, as to say that it was really a big deal. Some didn't think so. While I was reminiscing my past, I came across this post. Since 2008 is coming to an end, it is only natural for one to take a look back at ones life for the past year, right?

Actually I am thinking of skipping this topic and move on to the next one. ^_^

GREAT NEWS: I just received a phone call from Jes and she said "YOUR SUNAKO!"~♥♥♥

I knew what it was, the cosplay is on! And it will be my first ever cosplay, and as my most favourite character of them all, NAKAHARA SUNAKO! ~~♥♥

This girl right here.

Who can be like this:

And this:

So don't tell me that someone else is doing her. I did plan big though i.e. steal Biology lab punya human anatomy mannequin, because I can't afford B$100+ just for a Hiroshi-kun (one of Sunako's mannequins: others are John, Josephine and Akira-kun). And I was planning to get some skulls, a huge one for a John, but it is hard to find it in Brunei and I haven't really tried internet buying (although Jes advised me to). But now I have my own plan of doing small 'props' for Sunako. May not be extravagant like having mannequins all over (I wish), just some details.

I am not choosing her as my character because of my confidence in portraying her. OKAY look, to put it in simple terms, I am not Sunako. People don't describe me like this:

• Often referred to as Ghost girl or Scary girl due to her dark presence.
• A lover of solitude, gore movies, anatomical dolls and objects that reflect the ugly side of life as she puts it.
• Has locked herself away in a world of solitude due to a traumatic experience with her first love.

That is just not me, at least not all of that. But I like her character very much, not a candidate for a role model though but as someone I could see way deep down inside me, someone who I ought to be I think, that is if I hadn't got the confidence.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get my butt to the tailor shop, WITH MY MOTHER. Of course before that I have to buy some school uniform materials and thank God the colour of the school uniform is the same colour as the ones primary schools' wears (I wonder if mom still keeps mine?). Oh in case you are wondering why, I am cosplaying as Nakahara Sunako in her school uniform; a uniform which gives out some kind of 'catholic' vibe.

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EHHHHHHHHHHHH?! (like the typical japanese's "EHHH?!")

I did kept all Sunako's uniform photos for examples to show to the tailor but I seem to delete it already because I naively thought that I could just re'save' the image from the manga. AND now I am taking my bloody time searching for those pictures! Then I think I'll have to read the manga again, for the sake of my cosplay. ;p Google don't have those good photos from the manga.

P/S: Where to get such long straight (and black) wig ah? I already cut my hair short, again. What about a bini hat? I have an orange bini hat and I don't think Sunako would wear such bright colour. (giggle)

in trance

So here I am again, who was supposed to be soundly asleep. I did drowsed for a while but it came to my senses that he may be online. But he has not, so I am quite disappointed. Now it is hard for me to go to sleep so I decided to ONEMANGA-ing. I just finished "Cutie Boy"; its Manhwa. It is not a famous manga but why would that be a reason to not read it, right? Next up is NANA. Now this one is famous; a complete set -- manga, anime and live-action. But macam malas jua ku kan baca because I don't want myself to be attached to it like what I did to HYD and many other mangas. Especially when it is still ongoing, and also ones that is already completed. Ongoing mangas are a pain to the ass; I don't like to wait, I want to know what happens next. BUT when it is completed, I DON'T WANT IT TO END! Especially when there is romance. What can I do jua kan?

Speaking of HYD, the movie is already out RUPANYA. I did not know, not until I went to Mysoju and saw "Hana Yori Dango 3 The MOVIE". How come I didn't know? I thought I was such a huge fan. Actually before I did came across a HYD forum and they rumored of ...a THIRD SEASON of HYD? Of course I didn't believe it: I really think that the finale of season 2 was the best ending for HYD. It couldn't get any better, and there couldn't possibly be anymore mischiefs done by Doumyoji's mom. Then I was wrong again. Hmm, now I am curious. Bah kan lyt HYD 3 ku dulu!

EDIT: GRHH! Just when I was about to watch it, it VANISHES! "Ops. The video is not available" Damn you! Nevertheless, now I am watching Shugo Chara! again, from where I 'abandoned' it. I think I know exactly why I am addicted to Shugo Chara: ITS THE CHARAS! THEY ARE TOO CUTE!! OH believe me, they are. I can't resist this elementary-level anime because of that. I thought I was too childish but it seems that I am too into the charas (and not the character transformations OKAY).

skip a beat.

I have never thought of having to spend my time reading mangas and watch animes before. Thanks to Jeslyn, I even download them now. I love shoujo comedy mangas especially those involves bishounens (beautiful boys). I am that girly afterall. Sometimes I do read shuonen mangas too; best example is Naruto (you get the idea) but I am not catching up with it though. I only have watched Naruto Shippuden until episode 62.

SPOILER: I heard Kakashi died in the end? (well, reality check, everyone will though).

I only talk about Kakashi because I AM A KAKASHI-TARD! I don't really fancy Naruto neither do Sasuke or that homo guy, Orochimaru (fufufufu xp). Can I consider Sasuke to be homo too? Because he keep on talking about Itachi? Incest maybe? (fufufufu xp xp).

At this moment, there are a lot of ongoing mangas and animes that I still 'unconsciously' keep it up to date like Vampire Knight Guilty and Skip Beat! Aku hairan bah, why did I not want to watch those other famous animes especially those recommended by other people. Like Ouran High Host Club. Jeslyn recommended me that about a year ago I think. But I kept on skipping it and JUST YESTERDAY, when I was feeling all lonely because there wasn't any updates on Skip Beat! manga, I reluctantly clicked on Ouran High Host Club manga.

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End of first chapter.

CRAZY! I never knew that it would be that funny especially when I watch the anime. Oh oh! And she also recommended me Code Geass, which until now I have not watch completely. Biar-biar sampai 2nd season bah. But I did manage to watch the first episode in Chemistry lab, together with si Jeslyn. She possessed me into it (fufufu xp). Then we watched Full Metal Alchemist Episode 1 and Gintama Episode 1. Ooh, I miss Chemistry lab afterall, where Jeslyn and I unleashed our naughtiness. Kan Jes? But my point is that, that is where I stopped: EPISODE 1 OF EVERYTHING T_T.

OKAY, I have made up my mind. This is my New Year's resolution: Finish all the recommended manga and animes in January 2009...

...Of course I am kidding -_-' Why would I waste my precious resolutions? (But frankly, I have not really done any of my resolutions since last year; I just got worst)

I don't really like to read mangas actually because some authors are just too imiginative that I couldn't visualise it out, so I rather watch the anime of the manga instead. But scenes from the manga are usually cut off or they mix it up in the anime. So in some cases, I do both; read and watch.

At this moment alone, I am streaming VK Guilty Ep. 9 and the internet connection sucks. This is actually my 8th time restreaming it. God, sasak ku.