MY PAVVY!

TSK TSK. T_T

I am formatting my Pavvy. GOD, SINCE WHEN DID I START NAMING MY BELONGINGS? This so-called Pavvy is my HP Pavilion laptop. Cliche, I know but I really am not good with naming things; like for instance, I have this kitten plushy - well someone gave it to me and I am very reluctant to type out his name, for my own sake - that kitten, I have been keeping it for more than 3 years now and I still call it, merely... "kitten" or if my neffy asks... "meow bungsu". -_-;; I hope my future children names will not be as lame at that. >.<

FOOTBALL. Manchester United VS. Manchester City was on at 8.25 PM. 2-0. PERSONALLY, I like ROONEY but it would be a lie if I didn't mention RONALDO at all. I LOVEEE RONALDO, WHO DOESN'T. Jangantah ke Real Madrid bah. TEVEZ and PARK was not bad too. Others still did not catch my attention. I know EVRA and O'SHEA and GIGGS. AND AKU BARU TAU THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN FREE KICKS AND PENALTIES. -_-;; AND PROFESSIONAL FOULS. Well actually they don't call it professional fouls, I think that was just my dad's way of calling a foul being faked PROFESSIONALLY. :D For example, Ronaldo's, I think during VS. Tottensham, I don't remember BUT what I remember was HE GOT A PENALTY KICK FOR THAT AND SCORED. HAAAAAAHA.

But if I'm wrong about all that then forgive me because I am still new at this. :) BUT IT IS REALLY GOOD TO WATCH FOOTBALL MATCHES WITH MY DAD, and I rather watch football with him than drag him to watch romance movies with me. ~_~;;

PHOTOGRAPHY. Especially to si YASIR: awuu, aku paham udah about the motor thing. -.- Sheesh, banartah aku tau SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT but never really care to learn about the gadget - in this case, its dSLR camera. So far I have only try to 'play' with the mechanisms; you know, shutter and such. GAH, aku miss my passionate love for my NIKON. Sabar saja tah. Lapas PAVVY ku kana format, I will be back for more. ;)

NOVELS. I haven't start reading anything YET since my last post of NOVELS, plus PAVVY ku kena format. NOTE: AKU READ THE E-BOOKS.

Last but not the least, I am glad Fatin Nadirah left a tag arah tagboard ku or else I'd never know that an old friend still remembers me. :) :) She is afterall my old friend from SRAP: Sekolah Rendah Amar Pahlawan. Same goes to si Qils/Aqilah Rahman. (giggle) My memory of Qils was wayy back to Sek. Ugama Amar Pahlawan. She knows that, I think. About that OLD CRUSH OF YOURS QILS. NGEEEEEE. :D :D Back to Fatin, she was my classmate but inda ku ingat dari darjah berapa but we both were in 6B. I didn't think I was that close to you, was I? Because I was ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS with Rafidah, Amirah and Nabeelah. I wonder how's Fid doing?... D': I am so stupid for not keeping in contact with her. She was my very very best childhood friend. Kalau Amirah, last I met her was few years ago, and it was during my birthday! I even invited her to dinner together that day. :) I wonder if she still remembers that. Last I saw Fid about few years back too, arah Ideal and she was having lunch with her family. :)

Since Fatin have mentioned it at her blog: I AM SERIOUSLY IN FOR THE 6B REUNION THING. I MISS TOO MUCH OF THE GOOD OLD DAYS. Just a suggestion though, why not the entire Darjah 6 Year 2001 batch? Well since si Qils is from 6A and I am still in contact with Liyana from 6A, Aisyah and Ani jua and I also know some people from MD were from SRAP. Plus si Amin and Khafid are still in the neighbourhood. :) I am really curious to know what have they been doing up until now.

I MISS MY 12-YEAR OLD SELF. D': AND I AM SO GONNA DIG MORE SRAP PHOTOS FROM MY BOXES.

Tagged

Tagged by Amalish :)

Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/ her.

1. Her first lomo is a HOLGA. :)
2. Her first semi DSLR is a LUMIX. :D
3. She is full of emotions.
4. She loves to read novels and tends to download them instead of buying. :D
5. She also loves to cook and bake.
6. She introduced me to Plurk and made me addicted to it. XD
7. She never finish Hotel626. :D :D :D So do I.
8. She is going to wear braces. How do I know? PLURK WORLD.
9. She wears contact lens.
10. She is older then me. HAAAH. :) :) :)

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/ herself

1. Seemed arrogant but not arrogant. :)
2. Ada org cakap aku selalu hyper di skulah. o.o
3. Inda suka kena puji walautah banar sekalipun pujian2 yang di beri. HAHA.
4. I don't like to hold grudges.
5. I rather left things unspoken rather than make a whole mess out of it.
6. Can't seem to overcome her bad habits. :\
7. th of November is her birth day.
8. Has an A+ blood group.
9. But is a Thalassemia, minor. :) So thats why I can't be a blood donor.
10. Wants to be a Physiotherapist a.k.a Tukang urut professional. HEEEE :D

At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

Everyone. ♥ ♥ ♥

the moment part 2

OH. Hai.

Last Saturday, I went to my beloved school and gotten my Statement of Results. It really wasn't a dream. o.o

General Paper c
Biology NO RESULT

Chemistry B

Mathematics B

BIDA JUA TU 'NO RESULT' AH.

Patience. Patience. Patience. All I need now is patience. Fuuuuuh. OK. And so, I met many many many of my friends and aquaintances since morning and I misses them so much! I miss being in school. T.T tsk tsk tsk.

Zerah picked me up around 8 in the morning and we went straight to school and found out si Hanney was still waiting at the parking lot. At this time, si Jes sudah menunggu di atas. Alone. SORRY JES! -.-' I know I was the one who said that I'll come early. Zerah tu. HAHA its always Zerah who was at fault. Heeeeheeee. :D Then sejurus XD saja kami naik, sapa nah ku jumpa? SI AMALISH! Hahaha. Capi banar. What a coincidence. But really, there are 3 repeatative things that happens after I meet a friend:

1. Me: Apa kau dapat?
   A Friend: ABCDEUabcdeu etcetra. Kau?
2. Me: I got an X for my Bio~~! *exaggerated face*
3. A Friend: HAAAH?! O.O?! / Cana plang bleh? o.o?! / *eyes blinked and bangang*

Then tejumpa tia si Jes! Hehe. Ia sama si Aqilah. Aqilah ani an aquaintance but actually shes from my Maths class. I never really talk to her. XD Then keatas kami mengambil Slip. Met Munir guy! Then tejumpa ShiouYiiiii! She aced hers! XD Envy ku eh anak atu. When I told her about my X, shes was like "Kabak2 ku eh for you" with a very serious face! XD I bet shes worried. Apatah lagi akuuu.. ja? Thenn thenn tejumpa someone! :) :)

Me: Ahh~~~~! Ko bedating sama boyfriend ku ahhh~!
*do the tangan thing of 'Ahh~~!'*
Her: *NERVOUS FACE*

HEHEHEE. I don't know whether its because of that or pasal her results that she looks very awkward around me. Don't worry. I am... cool? With the fact that YOU WENT OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND?????! HAHAHAHA. Seriously, I don't mind. FUUFUUUFUUU! Awuu wahhhh, banar2 aku okayyy. Apakaaan aku ah.

Then we (Zerah, Hanney, Jes and I) went separate ways. Before that, I met si Aqilah, Muai and Nabila in front of the library and told about my X. They were like O.O? HUHUHU. Then tejumpa si Yasir lagi. Sama jua reactionnya. Haha. Wonder wheres si Mumu? THAT GUY KEEP ON TEXTING ME LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!! MAJAL WAH!!!!!!! Pasal parking punnn yehhh!!! -.-' So I went to check for Mrs. Irene but shes busy in the audi for the Lower 6 admission. Then melintas tia ku arah Chemistry Department and telihat my breakdown.

04 05 AS(?)

C D A

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! PAPER 5 KU D, NOT AN E!!!!!!! SANANG HATI KU EHHH!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! THANK GOD!!! *.* <-- glitter eyes

THEN TEJUMPA KU MY FIRST WIVES! SI GMAH AND SI ANNA! Yes, they both are my first wife. Shared. While I am their second wife. -.-' How unfair. Huhu. We went to the Biology Department together and saw our breakdowns.

04 05 AS(?)
B B X

Lawa kan? Bunyinya macam BEBEKS. -.-' So now its clear why my overall result is an X. They didn't include my AS. Then I left them to check for my Maths breakdown. I met si Jes and Mumu again there.

03 04 AS(?)
C D A

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!! Mechanics ku D WOOOHOOOO!!! I thought I flunked it. And I thought my Pure Maths would be worst. But then again, THANK GOD. *.* Baru ku kan lari, ada tia org memanggil nama ku. Ku toleh.... SI TIKAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAH I MISSS HERRRR SI KAMBANG AAHHHH. HUHUHU. Ia dapat 5 conditional offers udah and she showed me the list and asked for my opinion. I said "Always take the best :)" hehehe. Si Nisah pun ada but didn't get to congratulate her for her 2 'A's. Eco lagi tu. Fuhh~!

After that we went to the exam section and met si Gmah and Anna. I asked si Jes and Mumu to go stamp their certs first over at VIP Room while I go ranting over at the exam section. But I didn't because the teacher was sooo funnyyy and humble. All they said was "Just go home and warm your pillow" Haha. Yeah basically I just have to wait for them to contact me regarding my final result. Siigh. No Otago I think? Never mind. There is still UK to consider.

When I went outside, si Zerah and Hanney were there waiting, so did si Gmah and Anna. I explained to them and then went to the VIP Room with Zerah and Hanney to stamp our certs. UNLUCKILY, ramai orang. So kami pergi makan dulu over at our beloved canteen and sat on our spot. Ahh, how I miss those lunch times. We really had a great laugh. Sigh. I will really miss them. :'( Though you guys are not bestfriends but you guys were very very close to me, well compared to masa Form 5. We were from different 'tribes' hahahahahaha.

"Aku ada standard..." XD XD HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! Zerah knows what and who I am talking about. Hehehhehehehehehe. Then Mumu balik pasal kan servicing his car. I said to him "WHY TODAY OF ALL DAYS?" And apa nah nya "Appointment udah bah" GEH. Sasak ku. Tadi msg mcm apa. CEH. Then Hanney pun balik pasal kan ambil certs nya yang lain. Followed by si Jes pasal kan mendangani sisternya admission. So tinggal aku dengan si Zerah. Naik kami, jumpa lagi si dalenks ku, Gmah and Anna, now ada si Fakhri (dalenk si Gmah). There we talked further about my X. -.-'

THEN TEJUMPA SI WEI DENG DONG!!!!

Me: What did you got?? Triple Assssssss ni ehhhh.
Him: *smiled proudly and showed 4 fingers and waved it*
Me: AIIIII!! KAMBANGGG! So its a ...quadd..uhm??
Him: Quadruplets. XD

I meant to say Quartet. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Too much classical music bah aku ah. EEEEEE, I ENVY MY CHINESE FRIENDSSSSS. Tadi si Shiouyiii. Bis si Chi Haw and Ho Han apatah lagi. Sorry if I misspell your names ah. Huhu. Then back to si Gmah, "EH NGAPA KAN KAMU ITAM SEMUA ANI?" Kana jawab tia jua oleh si Fakhri, "Ada orang mati" XD HAHAA.

Then then finally we go stamp our certs. Met si Hanney again. Then something really really irritating happened. I won't say it here. But...

ARGHHHH LUAN JUAAAAAAA INDA BELAJAR MIB KAHHHH?????!!!!
INDA JUA PAYAH CEMATU KALIAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! INDA PUAS HATI PASAL HIDUP DRG
KALIIIII!!! INDA TAU ETIKA SEMASA BEKERJA KALIII!!! INDA BELAJAR SOPAN SANTUN
KAHHH?!?!?!?!?!?!?

There. That'll do. Zerah and Hanney tau tu. -.-' Then Zerah balik. Tinggal aku sama Hanney. Di library kami menphotocopy the rest of our certs. Caya, from 200 to 9 copies left. HAHAHA. 3 orang plang pakai tu: Hanney, Mumu and aku. We talked like the good old days. Aku sama Hanney selalu tu becerita kalau dalam library. Hehe. Oh we miss Vynna~ WHERE ARE YOU VNAAA????~~ COME OUTT~~~! HEHEHE.

Then si Hanney tiba-tiba craving to buy chocolates arah Hua Ho Gadong Property. Inda jua ku realised tu rupanya tempat atu Hua Ho. XD So we went out sekejap. She drives. Then datang sana bali Cades and ice-cream pulang. HEHE. Lepak dalam kereta and ceta-ceta lagi. Then finally went back to school to do the final stamping. HUHU. Then Hanney balik, I waited for my dad LIKEWISE arah tangga bawah ah. It was my waiting spot for almost 2 years and now, I guess I will miss the spot.

No, I will miss Maktab Duli. :'(

So juniors, don't complain. Lagipun banyak perbaruan udah kena buat for the sake of you little ones. (HEYY HEYY, I WAS ONCE THOSE LITTLE ONES TOO!!) :D :D :D

But my point is -.-'...... STUDY HARD AND SMART SO THAT YOU WOULD'NT REGRET TO HAVE SEEN YOUR STATEMENT OF RESULT TO BE WRITTEN "NO RESULT"S AND "UNGRADED"S ON IT.

DON'T IGNORE. TAKE IT.

the moment

I don't know why but I am quite in the mood to blog about what happened on 29th January. For 2 weeks long, I have been trying to google this:

A LEVEL NOVEMBER 2008 RESULTS BRUNEI

I have been having this mixed feelings about it ever since I first typed it out; temptation, anxiety, excitement, doubts, etcetra -- every kinds of feelings. And as days gone by, it faded away bit by bit but at the moment, to know that your mother just made a phone call and told you its going to come out today...?

o_O?!?!

KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Seriously. I couldn't think. As I walk out the room, I keep on going around and round and round the family hall when I was actually wanted to go to the bathroom. My mind was really numb. And most of my expressions were like this: o.o

Then I spent most of my time online; thanks to Amalish for accompanying me till the end. Been checking bruneiexam and bruneiastronomy most of the time for softcopies during that nerve-wreaking time which until now, not anywhere to be found. And 2 people, EVEN TWO PEOPLE, helped me by registering for the SMS thing meaning RESULTKU WORTH 6 BRUNEIAN DOLLAR BABYYY! Haha.

I, thoughtLESSly, said to my mom "Sapa bagitau result ku dulu, ku cium ni." since its already 3.30 pm at that time. Never in my life waited for that long for my exam result. Then the moment came just before I was finally going to the toilet (was reluctant to leave the phone). My mom's phone default message tone rang, which seemed pretty loud only at that moment. No suspense here. My cousin, who was one of the two who registered for me, forwarded the 'RESULT'. Since my mom is long-sighted, I uhh HAVE TO read it myself.

BIO/X
CHM/B
MTH/B
GNP/c

Note: I didn't do this to brag. Duiima, banyak lagi result org outstanding. And plus, I don't really think that other people other than my close friends will be reading this 'almost dead' blog. The only big deal to me is my Biology. Its my life. Kapish?

Bangangness came shortly after I read it. Then, I went blank. Very very blank. I only thought of this: I love Biology, very very very much. I did come to every sitting; I have witnesses :). I did checked whether I wrote my indexes during the exam; out of constant paranoia. AND I DID CARRIED FORWARD MY NOVEMBER; I went to the exam setion myself to check for the details. Period.

Then why in the world would I get, out of all the 25 alphabeths, an X?

o.o..?

o.O..?!

O_O!!!!

T__T!?!?!?!?

Of course yes. I snapped and broke down eventually. Cried like a crazy person and can't think of the possibility of the X to be some sort of a silly mistake, which everybody who I told can think of. Sampai inda tediri wah and bida lagi tu. Sheesh. Like I totally neglected my other subjects. SERIOUSLY. In my eyes were only 'BIO/X'. I think my eyes crossed like this: x.x pasal luan banyak tepikirkan X. One more reason was, I am planning to take Biology-related courses. So yes, I have the rights to rant about it.

I am very grateful for my other subjects though. Chemistry, Mathematics and GP was expected, especially GP :). I am proud of my GP not because of apa, its just that from the start of my GP classes, I have been only getting Cs. Like, it is the ONLY subject that I am consistent with. And YES, I GOT THE C IN THE END TOO! XD Happy happy!

I am very very grateful for Chemistry despite the disappointing Paper 5. I bet I got an E for it. I should really checked for my breakdowns later, out of curiosity of how did I get it through, haaah. The Paper 5, as I remembered, was a nightmare. I only answer ONE SECTION, and consciously leave the other section blank. o.o Menangis kali ku ah, but lagi bida ku menangis pasal X ani lah. Haha.

Same goes to my Maths. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *with the puas hati tone*. I DIDN'T DO MUCH OF THE PAST YEARS. HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA *proud tone*. But nyeh, it serves me right. Could have aced it but the effort was, SIGH. But still very grateful that it didn't dropped to a C. THANK YOU GOD! *__* <-- glittery eyes. :) :)

So here are my list of people who I wanted to thank eventhough X ku balum kena resolve:

• BABU AND BAPAKU. For the constant 'advices' and money support :D. And to be there for me when I cried my eyes out and whenever I have doubts in my life decisions. And to pray for my success everyday :). I LOVE YOU BOTH MUCH EQUALLY! =3 =3 Why did I said 'equally'? Pasal I think most of the time I usually talk to my mom about everything. But both were there through my thick and thin. :)
• MY BIO TEACHERS: Miss Lim, Miss Hui Hui and especially Mrs. Irene. Mrs. Irene, thank you for everything. :) Just to let you know, you are my second favourite biology teacher who I wanted to be proud of myself. :D And I would really love to reach beyond your expectations someday. And to the other 2 teachers, thank you for your brilliant time with us. Afterall, you did teach us something. :)
• MY CHEM TEACHERS: Madam Sikha and especially Tchr Jusmanita. Cher Jus, though I didn't get to know you close enough but thank you for everything! Especially, thank you for being strict to me! :) :) :) And Madam Sikha, you too, thank you for everything! I can't really say that only tuition helped me through because tuition alone wouldn't suffice for me. Cher Jus gave us everything, so do Mdm Sikha; from 'vigorous' classworks, homeworks and WONDERFUL NOTES! So the sum of all that, I am sad to say, I should have aced it. But I am still grateful compared to my early MPRs of Us. XD
• MY MATHS TEACHERS: Tchr Yohan Hendricks and especially Tchr Law Kok Beng. THANK YOU BOTH! Though we were only with Tchr Yohan for quite a short time but THANK YOU FOR THE BRILLIANT FORMULAS. I didn't get to use some though which is such a waste. Sigh. And I am sooo sorry that I escaped your class 4 times in a row (masa near exam). I knew that you saw me and said nothing. D:
• MY, THE ONE AND ONLY GP TEACHER: Miss Adyani! YOU ARE SUCH A BRILLIANT TEACHER. I like you a lot because you are fun! FUN FUN FUN! :) :) And you changed my views of life and the world itself. And thats big. :D So THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! And thank you for making me realise that our Earth is only this small because that makes me realise all the big deals are small deals afterall. :D Like my X deal. Haha.
• EVERYONE ELSE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR CARE ALL THIS TIME! :D

I can only say how thankful I am but couldn't really show how. So, I'll try to show it like this:

THANK YOU!

There. Thats how big my thank is. Suspense. :) Sadly, I wanted it to be bigger than the web page. Sigh. Bah I have to take a shower. I am going to go to school and rant there. XD Nada deh. Going to see my beloved teachers and kiss them. XD XD

Wait, X ku kan di apa? o.o haa.

-its not the end yet- :)

PRESENT TENSE

I AM MOVING ON -_-'' (some people should know what I mean by this).

AND SO, I can finally talk about somethingelse now. I am a bit reluctant though due to the fact that I have not uploaded photos from DevMeet.

HEEYY ITS NOT MY FAULT BAH! APA TU, THE BLOGGER ONLY
LET ME UPLOAD ONE PHOTO AT A TIME. LIKE, WHAT?? I HAVE MORE THAN 60 PHOTOS KALIAH. THEN THE CONNECTION LAGI TU MACAM APA!

Okayy, let it go. (talking to self) >_<

OKAY SO, what have I missed out?

TAHUN BARU HIJRIAH 1430. NEW YEAR 2009. ASTA FAMILY DAY. TUA ABG (nya niece ku) KAWIN. 3YEARS♥. NIECEKU SKULAH. "SPONTANEOUS" (nya Amal) OUTINGS. HANNEY'S. MOE INTERVIEW. SAKINAH'S. SHADOW ATTACHMENT.

And the best of them all is:

HANDCRAFTS: PLUSHIES♥♥♥

I am so in love with 'DIY' ('Do It Yourself') stuffs/thingy or whateveryoucallit. From papers to fabrics. I want to try it all. Recent example is Hanney's birthday present. I MADE HER A BUMBLEBEE PLUSH/SOFTIE! Since her name is Hanney/Honey so yeah, that should do it. I tell you, IT WAS NOT EASY but I made it overnight though (and because I was excited when sewing it together). To me, it was an achievement since I never really expected myself to actually sew everything IN PIECE and plus, BY FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS. -_-'' I admit that I am very bad at following "manuals".

I found the tutorial and FREE pattern over at DeviantART, so credits also goes to the owner for providing me with the INSTRUCTIONS which I needed very badly >_<

Here is where I do my work but I prefer hand sewing for making plushies.

So far I have made:

The Messy Ninja Guy
(my very first try)

The Squared Skull
(planning to make a lolita skull next, anyone wants?)

Ono, The Onogiri XD

My money pouch
My new principle: make the money feel comfortable so that more money will come.
So far it works. :D :D (though the photo tells otherwise haha)

last but not least,
Hanney's Bumblebee
SEE, I told you. It was in piece!

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so much much more

GEH. I have been refusing myself from blogging. OK OK. I shall blog all I have missed out now.

First off, my cosplay costume as Nakahara Sunako. I was 'thisclose' to change my mind of changing my character from Sunako to Noi-chan (also from My Fair Lady). Why you say? It is because of this:

Price: BND11.60

Yah, a frizzy wig. It wasn't an accident, I really bought it thinking that it should be okay for Sunako but I didn't think that it would be VERY FRIZZY. It was made for Holloween actually, I think. GAH. If I knew, I could have done the Sunako's Holloween costume instead of the uniform. OK OK so Misery offered me her looong brown wig (she was initially going to cosplay as Noi) then seeing my hesitation (maybe), before we went to get some 'snow', she brought me to the Happy Star Trading co.

Then I saw it.

THE WIG, with Sunako's bangs!

Price: BND21.90

GEH. I was like: O_O I SOULD HAVE GONE THERE EARLIER!

I bought the frizzy one at Little M, like, HAMPIR JUA TU! OK, seriously, sebenarnya I was starving at that time. We haven't eaten our lunch yet because my dad said "Caritah dulu wig mu ah" So the only thing I was thinking about was... food -_-". Yatah seriously I was regretting it.

I know its not loong enough and that I could have 'grown' them, but its pretty. Even prettier than my hair. Well I do not consider my hair pretty pulang. -_-" (depressed)

Then I went to the tailor shop to pick up the uniform costume.

Price: BND40.00 + BND10.00 (fabrics)

Though it is not exactly like the prints I gave her -_-' ... it is not bad actually. It is quite neat and a perfect fit. I also bought the socks; its a net socks instead of the 'thick' school socks because I do not want to sweat my feet a lot. XD Then the shoes, nyeh, I didn't buy that. Its my sister's. :D:D

Price: BND 3.90

Price: Priceless. XD

The sum of all that equals to:

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Price: BND87.40 XD

OH and I decided not to wear a bini hat pasal rimas lah. FUFUFUUFUUU~!!

Holy shittake part 2

*Continuation from this post.

Apparently, this is the ONLY photo that is safe.


Well, it wouldn't be fair if I say it like that. I meant to say the only safe photo FROM MY 19th BIRTHDAY. It is from my Facebook (I think some people should recognised, its my profile photo). I shouldn't have deleted my photo albums back then; I COULD HAVE RETRIEVED EVERYTHING, especially Miss Yani's. Inda ku sampat membagi teacher the photos bah. And plus, atu tah saja photo ku sama teacher Yani. GOD, AKU BANAR-BANAR SASAK.

P/S: Awu, that one is my boyfriend, si Yush. He looks like a baddie~ And I looked, weird. No comment.

sweet revenge

I don't feel like Sunako-ing today.

First, Yush, then my dad. Siigh. God, how much worse can this be? May be my sister knew that I was such in a bad mood so when she came home, she brought me Buttercookies. One of my favourites. Ah, just forget about it.

The day after tomorrow, the attachment. I have been looking forward to it ever since I heard about it last year. Some of my acquaintances from MD will be there too -- Gmah (LT12), Yee Ping (Bio), Shiou Yii (GP) and Jerold (Chem). We will be having a 1-week rotation service (but in fact the 1-week is merely 5 days excluding Friday and Sunday). Jangan salah, the schedule given is fully packed with everything! I think I am going to enjoy my attachment, somehow.

We are not paid for the attachment. It is just for the sake of knowing many different health-related careers that we can have and to experience it for a short while. As for me, it is between Scientific Services or Physiotherapy. Physiotherapy course - only God knows how exaggerated I was when I heard about people being nude during lessons just for the sake of learning about the "body". I can accept it now though. It is afterall, for the knowledge.

GTG. (stail lama)

P/S: I can't find my wig TT_TT (I shouldn't have cut my hair!) and my so-called 'school uniform' cost me BND40. It that a reasonable price? I thought it should be less than that. Afterall, it is a 'school uniform'. Is it that hard to make that kind of school uniform kah auntie? Or maybe she thought that I am just a spoilt brat who wouldn't care about how much my 'SCHOOL UNIFORM' would cost. Bah fine whatever, you are the tailor afterall. I can't do anything about that. My dad didn't care, but I care about money OKAY. My family is actually acquainted with one of the tailors (the main reason why I want to do my uniform there) but she moved to other branch. That is the reason why I didn't get a 'smooth' deal. GAHH!

P/S/S: That is why I got into a really bad mood. Akhirnya Sunako-ing jua ku nah. I JUST HOPE IT WILL TURN OUT VERY WELL SINCE IT COST ME BND40. Awu, jangan komplain because I have always been like this when it comes to money.

paradox

It is really funny on how I managed to complain so much over June AS examination, as to say that it was really a big deal. Some didn't think so. While I was reminiscing my past, I came across this post. Since 2008 is coming to an end, it is only natural for one to take a look back at ones life for the past year, right?

Actually I am thinking of skipping this topic and move on to the next one. ^_^

GREAT NEWS: I just received a phone call from Jes and she said "YOUR SUNAKO!"~♥♥♥

I knew what it was, the cosplay is on! And it will be my first ever cosplay, and as my most favourite character of them all, NAKAHARA SUNAKO! ~~♥♥

This girl right here.

Who can be like this:

And this:

So don't tell me that someone else is doing her. I did plan big though i.e. steal Biology lab punya human anatomy mannequin, because I can't afford B$100+ just for a Hiroshi-kun (one of Sunako's mannequins: others are John, Josephine and Akira-kun). And I was planning to get some skulls, a huge one for a John, but it is hard to find it in Brunei and I haven't really tried internet buying (although Jes advised me to). But now I have my own plan of doing small 'props' for Sunako. May not be extravagant like having mannequins all over (I wish), just some details.

I am not choosing her as my character because of my confidence in portraying her. OKAY look, to put it in simple terms, I am not Sunako. People don't describe me like this:

• Often referred to as Ghost girl or Scary girl due to her dark presence.
• A lover of solitude, gore movies, anatomical dolls and objects that reflect the ugly side of life as she puts it.
• Has locked herself away in a world of solitude due to a traumatic experience with her first love.

That is just not me, at least not all of that. But I like her character very much, not a candidate for a role model though but as someone I could see way deep down inside me, someone who I ought to be I think, that is if I hadn't got the confidence.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get my butt to the tailor shop, WITH MY MOTHER. Of course before that I have to buy some school uniform materials and thank God the colour of the school uniform is the same colour as the ones primary schools' wears (I wonder if mom still keeps mine?). Oh in case you are wondering why, I am cosplaying as Nakahara Sunako in her school uniform; a uniform which gives out some kind of 'catholic' vibe.

This one.
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EHHHHHHHHHHHH?! (like the typical japanese's "EHHH?!")

I did kept all Sunako's uniform photos for examples to show to the tailor but I seem to delete it already because I naively thought that I could just re'save' the image from the manga. AND now I am taking my bloody time searching for those pictures! Then I think I'll have to read the manga again, for the sake of my cosplay. ;p Google don't have those good photos from the manga.

P/S: Where to get such long straight (and black) wig ah? I already cut my hair short, again. What about a bini hat? I have an orange bini hat and I don't think Sunako would wear such bright colour. (giggle)

sick and twisted

I just got sick. My attachment is in about 4 days, and I am sick. Why now? Moreover, its at the hospital! I can't go around attracting bacteria and viruses all over me!

So today, I just stayed in my bedroom. Yes, the whole day. Like any other day though. I rarely go out even after the exam. What a pathetic truth. My mom wouldn't let me use the car. Siigh. So I usually just ask Yush to pick me up, but even that, she wouldn't let me go out frequently. In a week, I only go out twice now, sometimes none. Before, maybe once a month? But really, I can say that I really sacrificed my weekends and holidays for the last 2 years. Well, I wouldn't say that it didn't pay; the outcome is quite satisfying.

But I do sometimes miss hanging out. Siigh.

A very loud giggle.

It is very amusing on the fact that people actually think that I live an easy life, academically. Well, no. I don't. I used to but not anymore. In fact, I am quite comfortable with the way I am now. I learn to make mistakes so that I can find the reasons to not doing it again. Silly eyh? To few who knew, as ironic as it may seem, I did end up crying in the school toilet, for hours and days. (quiet giggle) I am not embarrass to admit it, but I did. It was the worst days of my life in college and that was before I found someone to talk to -- and I did not mean the school counsellors -- good friends, two good friends and a whole bunch of LT people. They somehow bring me back to life (and again, ironic) and give me a bit of taste of what a college life should be.

Sigh, I miss those people and them too -- my lunch friends -- it is easier to call them my lunch friends despite the fact that they are actually my good friends from SMB and we never miss gathering during lunch for the past 2 years, unless of course, the habit of absence in school strikes and holidays and some other logic reasons.

What inspires me from posting this up is merely a picture. This picture.

Can you see that? To me, it clearly penned in red ink:

64%, B graded, a "Well done" and a "DID YOU COPY?"

(giggling very hard) It was my chemisty short test, a short test, a very short test and I was somehow suspected of COPYING, for a short test? Me >> short test >> copying? As if. Even if I wanted to, I could have done it in the big exam, OKAY. But it never occurred in my mind. I think I know the reason why she did that: at that time I sat in front then when the time came for us to hand in, I went back to my seat which was at the very back, to get my overdued homework paper and to write my name on that paper. Maybe she thought I was referring to something! Sheesh.

There is another one but I am too lazy to get a photo of it, or was I? Actually I was too busy crying at the back of the classroom (giggle giggle). BUT I am sure that what she wrote was not only penned on my paper, but also in my brain and heart. She penned in red:

A zero, a "NO EFFORT AT ALL" and a "YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF". In addition, she even scolded me in front of the classroom, the loud and sharp scolding -- my very very first.

Again, its chemistry. Clearly I am not having a chemistry with Chemistry. Everything just go wrong in that lab. But this one, Erma also got scolded but I got the bullseye one; it melt me into something new, an alloy maybe? (quiet giggle) But I thank my chemistry teacher for all that because without it, I would have continuously hand in my answer papers with scribbles of test tubes and beakers.

I was also suspected of copying in Biology. God, I love Biology, why would I do that? So after few misunderstandings and that I constantly covered for the culprit, she was caught red handed at last. Uh-uh, it wasn't me who told Ms. Lim, it was she herself who told Ms. Lim. But if I write it like this, it may seem that she turn herself in but no-no, she didn't. Be surprised: she actually hand in her own paper with my name on it.

Don't get it? She blindly copied my name instead of writing hers! (since she was blindly copying off my works). (very loud giggle) You know who you are my friend. I do still miss this girl a lot despite her mischievousness. I don't mind about all this because it was such a hilarious memory.

I also experience this copying thing in Mathematics and it was the time when our beloved Mr. Law was still teaching us. Now he is in Aussie. I did e-mailed him though regarding my references for the scholarship. Seriously, I miss him a lot. (giggle) I remember of this one time when I was not in school for 3 days because I was very ill and when I came back, he put on that pity face and asked me how I was and said, in front of the class:

"I miss you. Boleh kan?"

(hard giggle) I blushed and the whole class was burst in laughter. Seriously, when he said that, he looked serious. Isn't he such a thoughtful teacher? (giggle) And I also remember about him mentioning about 'The Good, The Bad and The Ugly' -- it was about the Mathematics Department's system of ranking people by their Maths grades in O Level. Basically, we were on the 'Bad' level, and worst when he retired.

What about my AS subject - General Paper? Well, I don't have problems in GP other than having the feelings of inferiority each time I went to class but everything else was a hell lots of fun. I totally miss GNP Block 1, Miss Yani's class. And compared to my other classes, this class is the most outgoing -- we celebrate birthdays! And to me, Miss Yani taught us not just general issues but life itself. She sure picked the right career because what she did really inspires me in many ways.

I hope I can do that for others too.

Holy shittake.

I am very frustrated. I lost my most memorable recent photos, right from my own hard disk. Especially those photos from my birthday. I keep on blaming the stupid external hard disk for it and been unconsciously nagging like an old lady. God, sasak ku wah. The open LT photos I can take from Anna but the open GP class and Miss Yani's birthday?... God, aku banar-banar sasak. I should have burn them out and give it to Tikah earlier, but now what can I give her? I already promised her the photos after the exam. Is this my fault? I did nothing wrong jua! I am really sorry to those people involved in the photos. It is really upsetting for me to just let it be... gone, just like that.

Subject: People
Location: Home

O,O SUNAKO-CHAN!

I wonder hows my DeviantART is doing.

*still procrastinating*

Awu, aku malas bah. Even my blogger is half-dead. Seriously.

OH OH, lately I am into COSPLAYING!

Crowd: O,O?

Yah, I know. I don't do cosplay.
BUT recently, si JESLYN dash SUKI dash HII SOUK LENG has been contaminating my mind.

SO in the end, as I put my mind into it, I decided to be a part of the next cosplay meet...

AS NAKAHARA SUNAKO FROM PERFECT GIRL EVOLUTION
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WAHAHAHA. I was really into Sunako. && Amal is planning to be Sunako's friend, The Grim Reaper. GEHEHEHE. So yah, hair extensions, bini hat, Sunako's school uniform, contact lens, a skull notebook and a skull! I was hoping for one of Sunako's mannequins especially Hiroshi-kun~~!

"CHEST or CHESS???"

Sorry Chess people, not much of good quality photos.
I will add up some more later.

P/S: I AM VERY BAD AT CHESS. I asked Anna to play Chess with me but in the end... I surrendered.

I could not tolerate of not taking this (above). X,X SORRYY!!!

Depression.

Ah, okay. That was just so annoying to look at for the past few weeks.
"I am back people." like
"I AM REALLY BACK PEOPLEEEEEE!"
"THIS IS FOR REAL!!!"
Tapi my blog is literally DEEAADX,X!

Okay, so, whatever, right. I am just depressed over school.

Anyhoo.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS
TO
MY BELOVED FIRST WIFE (~_~)!
GMAH (LEFT)
(to the right is my first wife too, si Anna =S hehehe)

AND AND TO
MY VELI GOODEST FRIEND,
AMALINA

P/S: I wuvvee Amal. Shes so Gothic. I love Gothic people.
HEEE 8D. (Yes, as nerdy as I am...)

My goal.

"You show no improvement,..." she said.

I took things for granted.

16/05/2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SALLY!!
Sorry for not messaging you earlier today because I am accustomed to save the greeting for the last of the day.

I am sure some of you would know of a fact that most people tend to only recall the first few minutes of a lesson and the last few minutes of a lesson; so yes I am applying it in this case. WHICH strongly reminds me of Caesar. I remember him for the fact that he was the last person to greet me on my birthday. =)

VERY BELATED.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS

TO
LIYANA'S BELOVED ONE,
AZIM
ON THE
23/04/2006

TO
A VERY GOOD LONG LOST FRIEND OF MINE,
AZRI YAHYAON THE
06/05/2008

TO
MY CUTIE KOREAN-JAPANESE ALIKE DUCKIE COUSIN,
HAFIZON THE
09/05/2008

TO
MY DEARLY BELOVED NEFFY,
AFIZUL AMALIEE♥
ON THE
11/05/2008

TO
MY GOOD FRIEND SLASH COUSIN,
HANISAH

Sorry Nish, this is the latest picture of you that I have got. HEEE O=)

AND TO
GMAH KIUTT'S BELOVED ONE
FAKHRI

This picture is taken by Gmah herself. If you are reading this Gmah, I was actually kan upload you guys punya picture together but I know you would oppose for a particular reason that cannot be stated here. Gahaha.

ON THE
14/05/2008

GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU.

LT12 BLK5

Yes, from the GDLs, to the Elevenians, to the China Towners(?), you just feel as good being in MD despite of being in the so-called groupers; I was meant to say that in MD, we are racist we are rational.
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HEEE. ^___^

For me its does feels good to be able to be ACCEPTED here. That is as far as I know.

They are crazy, its fun to hang out with them. ^_^

W&W

"Eh kamu, on Saturday bis si Hazim kan surprisekan si Waley... and tarus si Wana punya bedday."

That was si babu, whispering to us and she even use post-its to tell us about the plan. GAHAHA. So yah, it was successful, I THINK. Though, si Waley pranked us back for making us wait at the Dining Hall for quite sometime, and for making us think that IA SUDAH BALIK! Shoot. He really knew how to surprise us but it was worth it because si Wana punya shocking face was mahal to capture at that moment. Huhu.
(Sorry for the broken language)

What I meant by NOT MINE is that its not me who capture it. And for the last photo... *giggles* SORRYYYYY BUT I CAN'T HELP IT BUT TO UPLOAD IT. Cute waa. Gehehehe.