the cloister of trials

HAHAHHAHAAHAHAH. Some knows what I meant by that. "The Cloister of Trials", Final Fantasy much? HAHAHAH. I am playing my FFX and FFX2, again. This is like the fourth time. Because I never get the ULTIMATE ENDINGS. :) :) And because I am very, very, verrry depressed. -_-!

I am reading the walkthroughs now. XP

P/S: IT WASN'T EVEN MY FAULT TO BEGIN WITH. o.o

GAKH.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAH
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAAH
HAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

I can do this all day.

I remembered of this piece of 'luck charm' or an 'energy booster' that I have been keeping for more than 6 months now.

Its in the form of a letter and it says:

- Rank for July Test = 77/96.

- Zatil has not improved, her grade remains at D/E.

- February Test = 58% (D); April Test = 55% (E); July Test = 53% (E).

- Total number of classwork done = 22/25. Failed = 8.

- Total number of homework done = 66/67. Failed =39.

- The good news is that Zatil has not failed any of her tests. However, she has scored quite low marks for all three. Some of the test questions are quite straightforward but she still cannot answer them. From her exercises and test answers, it seems that she lacks the in depth knowledge for the topics concerned. She simply needs to study to get all her facts. The problems could possibly be that she tends to write rough notes on pieces of paper during lessons which she does not organize until I ask for everyone's file for checking. For the last file checking, hers was done very neatly and in order but it was very late. I do not see the reason to decorate and type out all the notes before handing it in. It's a waste of time. All I'm interested in is that she has all the materials and notes that I gave her in order and complete. Zatil needs the time for something more fruitful, revision. She is capable of doing better but has not shown her true potential this year. It is still not to late for her to start revising. Her weakest point seems to be essay writing as she tends to answer out of point. Possibly due to misinterpretation of question and unsure about her facts. So work on question interpretation also. Sometimes her explanation in structured questions is not good, other times it's on the dot. This depends on whether she knows her facts or not. Don't forget your calculations and data analysis for paper 5.

Sekian. Wassalam. (XD NADEDEH)

Everybody in the class gets a piece each, and its very effective. :) As you can see for yourself, I am among the top 20 FROM DOWN BELOW. Its not like I care. I really didn't care. I get a U for my first ever L6 MPR then constantly gotten myself straight Ds till the end of my L6. Basically I was a D student for quite a while then I dropped to an E student during my Upper 6 years. I am not proud of those years. But you see, I managed to get through. I really wonder how. My teacher said, I really have a really good luck all this time and my results are kaluk ones. :D True I guess.

OK so I lied. YOU DO HAVE TO GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE PLAYSTATIONS OR LAPTOPS TO GET THROUGH A LEVEL. SERIOUSLY. AND THIS THING, THEY CALL IT 'SACRIFICES'. >_<

I had my share so why don't you do yours? Yes I know life is unfair. Siigh. BUT ITS WORTH IT YOU KNOW. BUT OF COURSE, unless you are among those very gifted ones. -.- So no comment on that. You go ahead and play your RPGs. :)

I guess its because of the A Level results that I feel I want to entirely reminisce my college life. :)

the moment part 2

OH. Hai.

Last Saturday, I went to my beloved school and gotten my Statement of Results. It really wasn't a dream. o.o

General Paper c
Biology NO RESULT

Chemistry B

Mathematics B

BIDA JUA TU 'NO RESULT' AH.

Patience. Patience. Patience. All I need now is patience. Fuuuuuh. OK. And so, I met many many many of my friends and aquaintances since morning and I misses them so much! I miss being in school. T.T tsk tsk tsk.

Zerah picked me up around 8 in the morning and we went straight to school and found out si Hanney was still waiting at the parking lot. At this time, si Jes sudah menunggu di atas. Alone. SORRY JES! -.-' I know I was the one who said that I'll come early. Zerah tu. HAHA its always Zerah who was at fault. Heeeeheeee. :D Then sejurus XD saja kami naik, sapa nah ku jumpa? SI AMALISH! Hahaha. Capi banar. What a coincidence. But really, there are 3 repeatative things that happens after I meet a friend:

1. Me: Apa kau dapat?
   A Friend: ABCDEUabcdeu etcetra. Kau?
2. Me: I got an X for my Bio~~! *exaggerated face*
3. A Friend: HAAAH?! O.O?! / Cana plang bleh? o.o?! / *eyes blinked and bangang*

Then tejumpa tia si Jes! Hehe. Ia sama si Aqilah. Aqilah ani an aquaintance but actually shes from my Maths class. I never really talk to her. XD Then keatas kami mengambil Slip. Met Munir guy! Then tejumpa ShiouYiiiii! She aced hers! XD Envy ku eh anak atu. When I told her about my X, shes was like "Kabak2 ku eh for you" with a very serious face! XD I bet shes worried. Apatah lagi akuuu.. ja? Thenn thenn tejumpa someone! :) :)

Me: Ahh~~~~! Ko bedating sama boyfriend ku ahhh~!
*do the tangan thing of 'Ahh~~!'*
Her: *NERVOUS FACE*

HEHEHEE. I don't know whether its because of that or pasal her results that she looks very awkward around me. Don't worry. I am... cool? With the fact that YOU WENT OUT WITH MY BOYFRIEND?????! HAHAHAHA. Seriously, I don't mind. FUUFUUUFUUU! Awuu wahhhh, banar2 aku okayyy. Apakaaan aku ah.

Then we (Zerah, Hanney, Jes and I) went separate ways. Before that, I met si Aqilah, Muai and Nabila in front of the library and told about my X. They were like O.O? HUHUHU. Then tejumpa si Yasir lagi. Sama jua reactionnya. Haha. Wonder wheres si Mumu? THAT GUY KEEP ON TEXTING ME LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!! MAJAL WAH!!!!!!! Pasal parking punnn yehhh!!! -.-' So I went to check for Mrs. Irene but shes busy in the audi for the Lower 6 admission. Then melintas tia ku arah Chemistry Department and telihat my breakdown.

04 05 AS(?)

C D A

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! PAPER 5 KU D, NOT AN E!!!!!!! SANANG HATI KU EHHH!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! THANK GOD!!! *.* <-- glitter eyes

THEN TEJUMPA KU MY FIRST WIVES! SI GMAH AND SI ANNA! Yes, they both are my first wife. Shared. While I am their second wife. -.-' How unfair. Huhu. We went to the Biology Department together and saw our breakdowns.

04 05 AS(?)
B B X

Lawa kan? Bunyinya macam BEBEKS. -.-' So now its clear why my overall result is an X. They didn't include my AS. Then I left them to check for my Maths breakdown. I met si Jes and Mumu again there.

03 04 AS(?)
C D A

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!! Mechanics ku D WOOOHOOOO!!! I thought I flunked it. And I thought my Pure Maths would be worst. But then again, THANK GOD. *.* Baru ku kan lari, ada tia org memanggil nama ku. Ku toleh.... SI TIKAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAH I MISSS HERRRR SI KAMBANG AAHHHH. HUHUHU. Ia dapat 5 conditional offers udah and she showed me the list and asked for my opinion. I said "Always take the best :)" hehehe. Si Nisah pun ada but didn't get to congratulate her for her 2 'A's. Eco lagi tu. Fuhh~!

After that we went to the exam section and met si Gmah and Anna. I asked si Jes and Mumu to go stamp their certs first over at VIP Room while I go ranting over at the exam section. But I didn't because the teacher was sooo funnyyy and humble. All they said was "Just go home and warm your pillow" Haha. Yeah basically I just have to wait for them to contact me regarding my final result. Siigh. No Otago I think? Never mind. There is still UK to consider.

When I went outside, si Zerah and Hanney were there waiting, so did si Gmah and Anna. I explained to them and then went to the VIP Room with Zerah and Hanney to stamp our certs. UNLUCKILY, ramai orang. So kami pergi makan dulu over at our beloved canteen and sat on our spot. Ahh, how I miss those lunch times. We really had a great laugh. Sigh. I will really miss them. :'( Though you guys are not bestfriends but you guys were very very close to me, well compared to masa Form 5. We were from different 'tribes' hahahahahaha.

"Aku ada standard..." XD XD HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! Zerah knows what and who I am talking about. Hehehhehehehehehe. Then Mumu balik pasal kan servicing his car. I said to him "WHY TODAY OF ALL DAYS?" And apa nah nya "Appointment udah bah" GEH. Sasak ku. Tadi msg mcm apa. CEH. Then Hanney pun balik pasal kan ambil certs nya yang lain. Followed by si Jes pasal kan mendangani sisternya admission. So tinggal aku dengan si Zerah. Naik kami, jumpa lagi si dalenks ku, Gmah and Anna, now ada si Fakhri (dalenk si Gmah). There we talked further about my X. -.-'

THEN TEJUMPA SI WEI DENG DONG!!!!

Me: What did you got?? Triple Assssssss ni ehhhh.
Him: *smiled proudly and showed 4 fingers and waved it*
Me: AIIIII!! KAMBANGGG! So its a ...quadd..uhm??
Him: Quadruplets. XD

I meant to say Quartet. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Too much classical music bah aku ah. EEEEEE, I ENVY MY CHINESE FRIENDSSSSS. Tadi si Shiouyiii. Bis si Chi Haw and Ho Han apatah lagi. Sorry if I misspell your names ah. Huhu. Then back to si Gmah, "EH NGAPA KAN KAMU ITAM SEMUA ANI?" Kana jawab tia jua oleh si Fakhri, "Ada orang mati" XD HAHAA.

Then then finally we go stamp our certs. Met si Hanney again. Then something really really irritating happened. I won't say it here. But...

ARGHHHH LUAN JUAAAAAAA INDA BELAJAR MIB KAHHHH?????!!!!
INDA JUA PAYAH CEMATU KALIAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! INDA PUAS HATI PASAL HIDUP DRG
KALIIIII!!! INDA TAU ETIKA SEMASA BEKERJA KALIII!!! INDA BELAJAR SOPAN SANTUN
KAHHH?!?!?!?!?!?!?

There. That'll do. Zerah and Hanney tau tu. -.-' Then Zerah balik. Tinggal aku sama Hanney. Di library kami menphotocopy the rest of our certs. Caya, from 200 to 9 copies left. HAHAHA. 3 orang plang pakai tu: Hanney, Mumu and aku. We talked like the good old days. Aku sama Hanney selalu tu becerita kalau dalam library. Hehe. Oh we miss Vynna~ WHERE ARE YOU VNAAA????~~ COME OUTT~~~! HEHEHE.

Then si Hanney tiba-tiba craving to buy chocolates arah Hua Ho Gadong Property. Inda jua ku realised tu rupanya tempat atu Hua Ho. XD So we went out sekejap. She drives. Then datang sana bali Cades and ice-cream pulang. HEHE. Lepak dalam kereta and ceta-ceta lagi. Then finally went back to school to do the final stamping. HUHU. Then Hanney balik, I waited for my dad LIKEWISE arah tangga bawah ah. It was my waiting spot for almost 2 years and now, I guess I will miss the spot.

No, I will miss Maktab Duli. :'(

So juniors, don't complain. Lagipun banyak perbaruan udah kena buat for the sake of you little ones. (HEYY HEYY, I WAS ONCE THOSE LITTLE ONES TOO!!) :D :D :D

But my point is -.-'...... STUDY HARD AND SMART SO THAT YOU WOULD'NT REGRET TO HAVE SEEN YOUR STATEMENT OF RESULT TO BE WRITTEN "NO RESULT"S AND "UNGRADED"S ON IT.

DON'T IGNORE. TAKE IT.

the moment

I don't know why but I am quite in the mood to blog about what happened on 29th January. For 2 weeks long, I have been trying to google this:

A LEVEL NOVEMBER 2008 RESULTS BRUNEI

I have been having this mixed feelings about it ever since I first typed it out; temptation, anxiety, excitement, doubts, etcetra -- every kinds of feelings. And as days gone by, it faded away bit by bit but at the moment, to know that your mother just made a phone call and told you its going to come out today...?

o_O?!?!

KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Seriously. I couldn't think. As I walk out the room, I keep on going around and round and round the family hall when I was actually wanted to go to the bathroom. My mind was really numb. And most of my expressions were like this: o.o

Then I spent most of my time online; thanks to Amalish for accompanying me till the end. Been checking bruneiexam and bruneiastronomy most of the time for softcopies during that nerve-wreaking time which until now, not anywhere to be found. And 2 people, EVEN TWO PEOPLE, helped me by registering for the SMS thing meaning RESULTKU WORTH 6 BRUNEIAN DOLLAR BABYYY! Haha.

I, thoughtLESSly, said to my mom "Sapa bagitau result ku dulu, ku cium ni." since its already 3.30 pm at that time. Never in my life waited for that long for my exam result. Then the moment came just before I was finally going to the toilet (was reluctant to leave the phone). My mom's phone default message tone rang, which seemed pretty loud only at that moment. No suspense here. My cousin, who was one of the two who registered for me, forwarded the 'RESULT'. Since my mom is long-sighted, I uhh HAVE TO read it myself.

BIO/X
CHM/B
MTH/B
GNP/c

Note: I didn't do this to brag. Duiima, banyak lagi result org outstanding. And plus, I don't really think that other people other than my close friends will be reading this 'almost dead' blog. The only big deal to me is my Biology. Its my life. Kapish?

Bangangness came shortly after I read it. Then, I went blank. Very very blank. I only thought of this: I love Biology, very very very much. I did come to every sitting; I have witnesses :). I did checked whether I wrote my indexes during the exam; out of constant paranoia. AND I DID CARRIED FORWARD MY NOVEMBER; I went to the exam setion myself to check for the details. Period.

Then why in the world would I get, out of all the 25 alphabeths, an X?

o.o..?

o.O..?!

O_O!!!!

T__T!?!?!?!?

Of course yes. I snapped and broke down eventually. Cried like a crazy person and can't think of the possibility of the X to be some sort of a silly mistake, which everybody who I told can think of. Sampai inda tediri wah and bida lagi tu. Sheesh. Like I totally neglected my other subjects. SERIOUSLY. In my eyes were only 'BIO/X'. I think my eyes crossed like this: x.x pasal luan banyak tepikirkan X. One more reason was, I am planning to take Biology-related courses. So yes, I have the rights to rant about it.

I am very grateful for my other subjects though. Chemistry, Mathematics and GP was expected, especially GP :). I am proud of my GP not because of apa, its just that from the start of my GP classes, I have been only getting Cs. Like, it is the ONLY subject that I am consistent with. And YES, I GOT THE C IN THE END TOO! XD Happy happy!

I am very very grateful for Chemistry despite the disappointing Paper 5. I bet I got an E for it. I should really checked for my breakdowns later, out of curiosity of how did I get it through, haaah. The Paper 5, as I remembered, was a nightmare. I only answer ONE SECTION, and consciously leave the other section blank. o.o Menangis kali ku ah, but lagi bida ku menangis pasal X ani lah. Haha.

Same goes to my Maths. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *with the puas hati tone*. I DIDN'T DO MUCH OF THE PAST YEARS. HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA *proud tone*. But nyeh, it serves me right. Could have aced it but the effort was, SIGH. But still very grateful that it didn't dropped to a C. THANK YOU GOD! *__* <-- glittery eyes. :) :)

So here are my list of people who I wanted to thank eventhough X ku balum kena resolve:

• BABU AND BAPAKU. For the constant 'advices' and money support :D. And to be there for me when I cried my eyes out and whenever I have doubts in my life decisions. And to pray for my success everyday :). I LOVE YOU BOTH MUCH EQUALLY! =3 =3 Why did I said 'equally'? Pasal I think most of the time I usually talk to my mom about everything. But both were there through my thick and thin. :)
• MY BIO TEACHERS: Miss Lim, Miss Hui Hui and especially Mrs. Irene. Mrs. Irene, thank you for everything. :) Just to let you know, you are my second favourite biology teacher who I wanted to be proud of myself. :D And I would really love to reach beyond your expectations someday. And to the other 2 teachers, thank you for your brilliant time with us. Afterall, you did teach us something. :)
• MY CHEM TEACHERS: Madam Sikha and especially Tchr Jusmanita. Cher Jus, though I didn't get to know you close enough but thank you for everything! Especially, thank you for being strict to me! :) :) :) And Madam Sikha, you too, thank you for everything! I can't really say that only tuition helped me through because tuition alone wouldn't suffice for me. Cher Jus gave us everything, so do Mdm Sikha; from 'vigorous' classworks, homeworks and WONDERFUL NOTES! So the sum of all that, I am sad to say, I should have aced it. But I am still grateful compared to my early MPRs of Us. XD
• MY MATHS TEACHERS: Tchr Yohan Hendricks and especially Tchr Law Kok Beng. THANK YOU BOTH! Though we were only with Tchr Yohan for quite a short time but THANK YOU FOR THE BRILLIANT FORMULAS. I didn't get to use some though which is such a waste. Sigh. And I am sooo sorry that I escaped your class 4 times in a row (masa near exam). I knew that you saw me and said nothing. D:
• MY, THE ONE AND ONLY GP TEACHER: Miss Adyani! YOU ARE SUCH A BRILLIANT TEACHER. I like you a lot because you are fun! FUN FUN FUN! :) :) And you changed my views of life and the world itself. And thats big. :D So THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! And thank you for making me realise that our Earth is only this small because that makes me realise all the big deals are small deals afterall. :D Like my X deal. Haha.
• EVERYONE ELSE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR CARE ALL THIS TIME! :D

I can only say how thankful I am but couldn't really show how. So, I'll try to show it like this:

THANK YOU!

There. Thats how big my thank is. Suspense. :) Sadly, I wanted it to be bigger than the web page. Sigh. Bah I have to take a shower. I am going to go to school and rant there. XD Nada deh. Going to see my beloved teachers and kiss them. XD XD

Wait, X ku kan di apa? o.o haa.

-its not the end yet- :)

Baby turturs.

I AM BACK PEOPLE.

This photo was from the biology's turtle centre trip.
The photos taken were THAT bad. GAH.

the ants... siigh

I should have taken it.
I should have listen to them.
"Just take it."
"I'll hold the bag for you."
I should have burden them! Gahahahaha.
I FREAKING REGRET IT.
THE SCHOOL OF ANTS.
Okay. That was so wrong.
But what ever right?
I did not get a distinction for English Language okay.

'Ecological' trip.

Best 'people' portrait of the day. The way I see it though.
Credits to these people whose faces belongs to.
Sorry for not asking permissions to put up your photo.

P/S: Muai, I'll just give you the photos next year ya? =)