A very loud giggle.

It is very amusing on the fact that people actually think that I live an easy life, academically. Well, no. I don't. I used to but not anymore. In fact, I am quite comfortable with the way I am now. I learn to make mistakes so that I can find the reasons to not doing it again. Silly eyh? To few who knew, as ironic as it may seem, I did end up crying in the school toilet, for hours and days. (quiet giggle) I am not embarrass to admit it, but I did. It was the worst days of my life in college and that was before I found someone to talk to -- and I did not mean the school counsellors -- good friends, two good friends and a whole bunch of LT people. They somehow bring me back to life (and again, ironic) and give me a bit of taste of what a college life should be.

Sigh, I miss those people and them too -- my lunch friends -- it is easier to call them my lunch friends despite the fact that they are actually my good friends from SMB and we never miss gathering during lunch for the past 2 years, unless of course, the habit of absence in school strikes and holidays and some other logic reasons.

What inspires me from posting this up is merely a picture. This picture.

Can you see that? To me, it clearly penned in red ink:

64%, B graded, a "Well done" and a "DID YOU COPY?"

(giggling very hard) It was my chemisty short test, a short test, a very short test and I was somehow suspected of COPYING, for a short test? Me >> short test >> copying? As if. Even if I wanted to, I could have done it in the big exam, OKAY. But it never occurred in my mind. I think I know the reason why she did that: at that time I sat in front then when the time came for us to hand in, I went back to my seat which was at the very back, to get my overdued homework paper and to write my name on that paper. Maybe she thought I was referring to something! Sheesh.

There is another one but I am too lazy to get a photo of it, or was I? Actually I was too busy crying at the back of the classroom (giggle giggle). BUT I am sure that what she wrote was not only penned on my paper, but also in my brain and heart. She penned in red:

A zero, a "NO EFFORT AT ALL" and a "YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF". In addition, she even scolded me in front of the classroom, the loud and sharp scolding -- my very very first.

Again, its chemistry. Clearly I am not having a chemistry with Chemistry. Everything just go wrong in that lab. But this one, Erma also got scolded but I got the bullseye one; it melt me into something new, an alloy maybe? (quiet giggle) But I thank my chemistry teacher for all that because without it, I would have continuously hand in my answer papers with scribbles of test tubes and beakers.

I was also suspected of copying in Biology. God, I love Biology, why would I do that? So after few misunderstandings and that I constantly covered for the culprit, she was caught red handed at last. Uh-uh, it wasn't me who told Ms. Lim, it was she herself who told Ms. Lim. But if I write it like this, it may seem that she turn herself in but no-no, she didn't. Be surprised: she actually hand in her own paper with my name on it.

Don't get it? She blindly copied my name instead of writing hers! (since she was blindly copying off my works). (very loud giggle) You know who you are my friend. I do still miss this girl a lot despite her mischievousness. I don't mind about all this because it was such a hilarious memory.

I also experience this copying thing in Mathematics and it was the time when our beloved Mr. Law was still teaching us. Now he is in Aussie. I did e-mailed him though regarding my references for the scholarship. Seriously, I miss him a lot. (giggle) I remember of this one time when I was not in school for 3 days because I was very ill and when I came back, he put on that pity face and asked me how I was and said, in front of the class:

"I miss you. Boleh kan?"

(hard giggle) I blushed and the whole class was burst in laughter. Seriously, when he said that, he looked serious. Isn't he such a thoughtful teacher? (giggle) And I also remember about him mentioning about 'The Good, The Bad and The Ugly' -- it was about the Mathematics Department's system of ranking people by their Maths grades in O Level. Basically, we were on the 'Bad' level, and worst when he retired.

What about my AS subject - General Paper? Well, I don't have problems in GP other than having the feelings of inferiority each time I went to class but everything else was a hell lots of fun. I totally miss GNP Block 1, Miss Yani's class. And compared to my other classes, this class is the most outgoing -- we celebrate birthdays! And to me, Miss Yani taught us not just general issues but life itself. She sure picked the right career because what she did really inspires me in many ways.

I hope I can do that for others too.