I have been having this mixed feelings about it ever since I first typed it out; temptation, anxiety, excitement, doubts, etcetra -- every kinds of feelings. And as days gone by, it faded away bit by bit but at the moment, to know that your mother just made a phone call and told you its going to come out today...?
Then I spent most of my time online; thanks to Amalish for accompanying me till the end. Been checking bruneiexam and bruneiastronomy most of the time for softcopies during that nerve-wreaking time which until now, not anywhere to be found. And 2 people, EVEN TWO PEOPLE, helped me by registering for the SMS thing meaning RESULTKU WORTH 6 BRUNEIAN DOLLAR BABYYY! Haha.
I, thoughtLESSly, said to my mom "Sapa bagitau result ku dulu, ku cium ni." since its already 3.30 pm at that time. Never in my life waited for that long for my exam result. Then the moment came just before I was finally going to the toilet (was reluctant to leave the phone). My mom's phone default message tone rang, which seemed pretty loud only at that moment. No suspense here. My cousin, who was one of the two who registered for me, forwarded the 'RESULT'. Since my mom is long-sighted, I uhh HAVE TO read it myself.
BIO/X
CHM/B
MTH/B
GNP/c
Note: I didn't do this to brag. Duiima, banyak lagi result org outstanding. And plus, I don't really think that other people other than my close friends will be reading this 'almost dead' blog. The only big deal to me is my Biology. Its my life. Kapish?
Bangangness came shortly after I read it. Then, I went blank. Very very blank. I only thought of this: I love Biology, very very very much. I did come to every sitting; I have witnesses :). I did checked whether I wrote my indexes during the exam; out of constant paranoia. AND I DID CARRIED FORWARD MY NOVEMBER; I went to the exam setion myself to check for the details. Period.
Then why in the world would I get, out of all the 25 alphabeths, an X?
o.o..?
o.O..?!
O_O!!!!
T__T!?!?!?!?
Of course yes. I snapped and broke down eventually. Cried like a crazy person and can't think of the possibility of the X to be some sort of a silly mistake, which everybody who I told can think of. Sampai inda tediri wah and bida lagi tu. Sheesh. Like I totally neglected my other subjects. SERIOUSLY. In my eyes were only 'BIO/X'. I think my eyes crossed like this: x.x pasal luan banyak tepikirkan X. One more reason was, I am planning to take Biology-related courses. So yes, I have the rights to rant about it.
I am very grateful for my other subjects though. Chemistry, Mathematics and GP was expected, especially GP :). I am proud of my GP not because of apa, its just that from the start of my GP classes, I have been only getting Cs. Like, it is the ONLY subject that I am consistent with. And YES, I GOT THE C IN THE END TOO! XD Happy happy!
I am very very grateful for Chemistry despite the disappointing Paper 5. I bet I got an E for it. I should really checked for my breakdowns later, out of curiosity of how did I get it through, haaah. The Paper 5, as I remembered, was a nightmare. I only answer ONE SECTION, and consciously leave the other section blank. o.o Menangis kali ku ah, but lagi bida ku menangis pasal X ani lah. Haha.
Same goes to my Maths. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *with the puas hati tone*. I DIDN'T DO MUCH OF THE PAST YEARS. HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA *proud tone*. But nyeh, it serves me right. Could have aced it but the effort was, SIGH. But still very grateful that it didn't dropped to a C. THANK YOU GOD! *__* <-- glittery eyes. :) :)
So here are my list of people who I wanted to thank eventhough X ku balum kena resolve:
- BABU AND BAPAKU. For the constant 'advices' and money support :D. And to be there for me when I cried my eyes out and whenever I have doubts in my life decisions. And to pray for my success everyday :). I LOVE YOU BOTH MUCH EQUALLY! =3 =3 Why did I said 'equally'? Pasal I think most of the time I usually talk to my mom about everything. But both were there through my thick and thin. :)
- MY BIO TEACHERS: Miss Lim, Miss Hui Hui and especially Mrs. Irene. Mrs. Irene, thank you for everything. :) Just to let you know, you are my second favourite biology teacher who I wanted to be proud of myself. :D And I would really love to reach beyond your expectations someday. And to the other 2 teachers, thank you for your brilliant time with us. Afterall, you did teach us something. :)
- MY CHEM TEACHERS: Madam Sikha and especially Tchr Jusmanita. Cher Jus, though I didn't get to know you close enough but thank you for everything! Especially, thank you for being strict to me! :) :) :) And Madam Sikha, you too, thank you for everything! I can't really say that only tuition helped me through because tuition alone wouldn't suffice for me. Cher Jus gave us everything, so do Mdm Sikha; from 'vigorous' classworks, homeworks and WONDERFUL NOTES! So the sum of all that, I am sad to say, I should have aced it. But I am still grateful compared to my early MPRs of Us. XD
- MY MATHS TEACHERS: Tchr Yohan Hendricks and especially Tchr Law Kok Beng. THANK YOU BOTH! Though we were only with Tchr Yohan for quite a short time but THANK YOU FOR THE BRILLIANT FORMULAS. I didn't get to use some though which is such a waste. Sigh. And I am sooo sorry that I escaped your class 4 times in a row (masa near exam). I knew that you saw me and said nothing. D:
- MY, THE ONE AND ONLY GP TEACHER: Miss Adyani! YOU ARE SUCH A BRILLIANT TEACHER. I like you a lot because you are fun! FUN FUN FUN! :) :) And you changed my views of life and the world itself. And thats big. :D So THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! And thank you for making me realise that our Earth is only this small because that makes me realise all the big deals are small deals afterall. :D Like my X deal. Haha.
- EVERYONE ELSE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR CARE ALL THIS TIME! :D
I can only say how thankful I am but couldn't really show how. So, I'll try to show it like this:
THANK YOU!
There. Thats how big my thank is. Suspense. :) Sadly, I wanted it to be bigger than the web page. Sigh. Bah I have to take a shower. I am going to go to school and rant there. XD Nada deh. Going to see my beloved teachers and kiss them. XD XD
Wait, X ku kan di apa? o.o haa.
-its not the end yet- :)
